First week of breeding my new born

一眨眼，和宝宝相处了一个星期了。琪说得蛮对的，做月期间是有种失落感，而那感觉很多时侯是宝宝的哭闹与不合作而产生的。还有的就是，由于自己是新手妈妈，很多对宝宝的沟通技巧和照顾，都没有旁边老人家来得周到。其实，这一点并不是最困扰的。有时困扰的是自己的观念与老人家有差异。老人家总是认为她们非常有经验，不是很接受你的看法与建议，但实际上是可行的，正确的。那时候，就会有些懊恼。很多时候都常劝自己不要跟老人家计较，而且沟通上一定要以尊重为先，这样才是一个成熟妈妈的态度。但是，有时候的不多解释并不代表我认同，真的很希望老人家有时候能够听听晚辈，不要一味的自圆其说，自己说了算，久了恐怕自己无法招架，恐怕会有磨檫。举个例子，宝宝睡到一半突然哭闹，不是肚子饿了，就是肚痛嘛！老人家竟然说是什么花公花母欺负他，听了让我无所适从。老人家接过宝宝后，又继续哭闹，然后又开始了自圆其说原来是宝宝肚子痛了，也就是我一开始说的，不是吗？ 一个礼拜的坐月子，真是度日如年。由于自己康复的比较快，一个星期，好像过了一个月似的，好慢好慢。每天重复着一样的人，事，食与物，感觉自己越来越像畜生，脑袋越来越生锈。后来，我才了解，为什么人们总是说产后的妇女会比较迟钝，都是因为这种坐月子方式，吃了睡，睡了吃，每天几乎没什么用到脑。 最近开始在想，把宝宝留在这里是否是好的选择。感觉日子久了，他还会不会认得我这个妈？就算认得，关系会好吗？越想越怕，每次想到的解决方案，都会想到一个关键人物，那就是自己的妈。但是，答案都是令人失望的，因为她肯定不愿意帮忙。虽然很不解以往那么疼爱自己的人，为何到了自己结婚后会有那么大的差异？从我生产到现在，她竟然一通电话都没打过给我，每一次都是自己打去，而且可以感受到她不愿多谈。很希望有人可以告诉我为什么会这样？？？我自认和其他兄姐相比没有做过很忤逆的事，为什么可以对我那么不在乎，我不是她女儿吗？当家婆对我比她好时，我很讨厌，因为这种待遇，不应该出自家婆，应该出自自己妈妈才对，很无奈～ 老公做工辛苦，我是不应该再烦他了。但是，无论如何，我一定要想个办法把宝宝留在自己身边。。。

Hello Gyovince!!!

It has been a week my little Gyovince was hidding inside my little belly. He has been given me a surprise contraction last weekend that had made me so panic to welcome his arrival. The contraction and the advice that the doctor had delivered to me has been given me a thought that my little Gyovince will be coming out earlier than what I've expected, that had also indirectly save my maternity leaves which I'd taken it earlier. After spending a few hours in the hospital, and now, a week at my in law's place, the times has passed proof my little Gyovince's intention is not to come out that soon as I was thinking. Thus, my patient is challenged again. As people who know me will understand that I'll sick of too long holidays with nothing to do but waiting. I waslike living a dull life everyday with my in law who I think treat me nicer than my biological mom did. At this moment, I couldn't bear to feel pity to my hubby who is now staying with her due to his work in Singapore. Since my mom doesn't adore me like what in law did to me, so she did to my hubby, maybe worst. This is the only point that is quite puzzling me during this period. Sometimes, we couldn't expect people to treat us as good as what other did. But when you did comparison among family members, especially between in laws' and your own family members, you will felt why such different occured. Anyway, put this aside, given that we have different family background and culture, I should admit such a culture shock happened in my family. Gyovince is kicking me again. Just finished sms with my little man for signing the Tenancy Agreement tomorrow. I've suggested him to bring along sister to attend that signing because the landlord is not there. But, my idea was strongly rejected, maybe he is thinking that I'm treating him like a kid? Oh man, pride and dignity shouldn't be your concerns for safetiness sake. Anyway, still, as his wife, I have to respect his decision. Well, it's Sunday tomorrow. Should think of something to do to ease my dullness and boringness...I did really crave my little one can co-operate and come out as earlier as mommy wish ... Dear Gyovince, many people are so looking forward to your arrival, instead of mild kicking and sommer-saulting in mommy's tummy, just come out and see this beautiful world and enjoy mommy and daddy's hugging and kissing, which is your world with no more darkness and narrow space..mommy love you..muach!!!

A Big Change in my Life

When I'm typing this blog, a little one in my belly is feeling my thoughts and senses to this blog. It has been just 6 months time and everything has been changed tremendously. I got married on last christmas day, taking wedding photos and engaged into a long wedding preparation last few months, busy with contacting people and wedding reception within just 2 months. To be frank, I was pleasure and glad when I first come to know a little one in my life. He/she has been growing well in my tommy and somehow making me emotionally changed tremendously. I can't concetrate my works at all, I'll feel tired very easily, bad appetite and frequent neuseous contribute to my bad temper to people around me. Especially my family, I'm very sorry to them.

The sudden change in my life cause me a lot of stress and hard feeling.And on this particular time, it's damn difficult to find someone who can help and understand you or someone who can listen to you. I'm not all right. But, it seems like no one will bother at all. I hope i can be stronger but this battle seems like the hardest one to me. How can I go through all this? Is there any way out when you're really have will to go through all this?