Valentine v sombre mood..

Today is a day where many couple are waiting to clebrate in a most romantical environment. However,i'm one from them who did not do that but sitting infront of my pc n typing this sombre blog.

Actually, i was quite afraid of typing sth in my blog recently. It is not because of i'm worry about others to know my things but to write the essay. Since i knew my essay was actually in the same standard with bear..my confident was shattered and dont dare to write any essay.i'm not trying to turn bear up to consider his and my eassay at the same standard as an awful matter. However, i was being saddened by my poor language tht was not achieve a law student's standard as i'm one of them!!I cant accept tht my language was belong to the standard of engineering student who seldom use english but numbers. I was..really appalled and devastated for my disability.

I hope that i can become strong to face the next challenge...but.. I cant find bk my confident ..i lost to believe my competency in handling everything.. i was hesitate for any thing i going to do or done. i just felt i'm a dull in every class. I've no mood to study or strive for any merit in my study. I just felt that i'm doing wrong in most of the time. nothing good will come to me..my dear is also felt irritated of my unconfident and no matter how hard he is trying to advise me but i just cant listen to him.

I think i was in the down stream in my life. Just trying to stand up quickly to strive for MUET.. herad ppl say that if get 3 again then cant graduate ..then what i've done was for nth. I didnt do any bad thing.. pls let me pass ok??my dear GOD.

Last but not least .. hope that everything can going smooth tml onward.

The first day of new sem

Due to the absent of 1st week class, only i knew tht i've left behind so much than others today. I'm still get my first chapter note on desk while others edi reading on 2nd chapter. Furthermore, even though i edi inform others to leave a place for me in the assignment group but at the end sill being left out....attentance also not been signed although it was being informed to be signed..too..well i think .. maybe i'm not really welcome by others..Wow..a little bit regeret tht didnt attent the class for the first week but did nothing at home.Sigh....

I felt so lazy to do study or formal events this sem..no mood at all..maybe i've comsume all my confident that nth left for my future.just felt tht everything i did was bad..ppl dun like..even i myself oso dun like what i've done for sth..what's wrong with me?maybe only GOD can tell..

Season greeting + gathering..

Finally my 2nd sis reached during this early morning. The bad news was she had lost one of her luggage in the airport. Fortunately, there were not any valuable things inside but the present for some of us. Anyway, nothing can compare to the chance for us to meet sis during this new year. We were so worry tht we cant meet her due to the winter chill happened at china. Luckily sis's flight did not cancelled and was successfully depart from shanghai airport.
It was a long time didnt meet sis, but her shopping competency was still maintain as super as b4. She had bought a new hp on the spot after breakfast. Anyway..i'm not so encourage of this extravagant life style.
Haiz..long time didnt meet bear liao..miss him until insensible edi..thr was so much of things wanna share with him..hope to meet him soon.