Thursday, February 14, 2008

Valentine v sombre mood..

Today is a day where many couple are waiting to clebrate in a most romantical environment. However,i'm one from them who did not do that but sitting infront of my pc n typing this sombre blog.

Actually, i was quite afraid of typing sth in my blog recently. It is not because of i'm worry about others to know my things but to write the essay. Since i knew my essay was actually in the same standard with bear..my confident was shattered and dont dare to write any essay.i'm not trying to turn bear up to consider his and my eassay at the same standard as an awful matter. However, i was being saddened by my poor language tht was not achieve a law student's standard as i'm one of them!!I cant accept tht my language was belong to the standard of engineering student who seldom use english but numbers. I was..really appalled and devastated for my disability.

I hope that i can become strong to face the next challenge...but.. I cant find bk my confident ..i lost to believe my competency in handling everything.. i was hesitate for any thing i going to do or done. i just felt i'm a dull in every class. I've no mood to study or strive for any merit in my study. I just felt that i'm doing wrong in most of the time. nothing good will come to me..my dear is also felt irritated of my unconfident and no matter how hard he is trying to advise me but i just cant listen to him.

I think i was in the down stream in my life. Just trying to stand up quickly to strive for MUET.. herad ppl say that if get 3 again then cant graduate ..then what i've done was for nth. I didnt do any bad thing.. pls let me pass ok??my dear GOD.

Last but not least .. hope that everything can going smooth tml onward.

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