Mind refrshing..

this is nearly 1 am but i'm still not willing to turn in but typing my mind here.
whenever i've finished study, i would just hv a habit that to kill some time to do other things before sleep, and consequently i alwiz got no enuf sleep tml.

i was just review bk what i've wrote in the pass 40 over blog, and found that actually i'm more happy in last sem than this sem very very much. i spent quite a lot of time to share with my frns last sem, however, it doesnt happen now. i will instead to lie to escape from gathering, coz i suddenly think that such meeting was merely perfunctory rather than sincerely. it become the event that i will think is time wasting. perhaps, i hv no interpersonal skill at all.

when i was met with myint zant doing the advicee assessment, his expression of my MUET result is again downgrade my english ability.then he try to ask certain word to test my vocab ability, and yes, i've disappointing him . who can save my language? it left only a month to the exam, but i did not prepared anything. is no prepare will better than prepare? somebody told me this, for me, he will definitely the one who bluffing. it doesnt mean that i'm not agree v him totally, but the one who is not prepare but still able to strike a good grade were those english background banana but ME, a Mandarin!!

should i believe in destiny now?? may be... who know???LOST DIRECTION MOOD....

充满二氧化碳的心情

第一次用自己的母语写博客感觉格外的舒服与贴切，真怕有一天不记得用这贴切的方块字抒发自己的感觉。

言归正传，最近的我很容易发脾气，不小的事太压力又或者是健康出了问题，我想。。应该两者都是吧。。。

烦。。。。

基本上， 烦课业是免不了的。。感情上也没什么是特别烦的。。只不过。。心里头总是闷闷的。。有点令人窒息。。或许是被自己的一些糊涂行为和坏脾气影响到了吧。。对了。。。写到这里。。我大概了解自己是怎么一回事了。。

我今天做了几件事，让我自己无法忍受，所以就出现了这种后遗症。。

这两天，大家都应该穿得整齐以便应付律师公会审查官的巡视，我们能不能通过律师公会的专业资格，就得靠这次两天的表现了。。而我却不知道为什么，明明知道需要穿合礼仪的服装，却偏偏选了一件自己觉得合穿但别人不人为合礼仪的服装去上课，结果成了众人的焦点。。搞到自己麻烦别人送回家换过衣再到学校去， 累人累己。。

然后，很多事情想要快些完成，却一样都没办到。。觉得自己是超失败的。。以为自己真的是神童。。老师今天告诉我们，我们将有很大的可能性会拿到一半的通过资格，那就是总成绩在3.5 以上的学生才能够有资格通过专业资格的评价，可直接录取为实习律师，以下的学生则必须多花钱与时间，报考专业资格文凭（ 一次八千零吉），而且通常都必须靠上好几次才能顺利通过。。听了老师的分析，突然点起了心中的奋力之火，赶紧回家尊卑埋头苦读，但是，只把火。。好像很快的又灭了。。开始觉得自己很没用，压力又来了。。

晚上，又是一趟补课，上的太迟，雄在外头等得不耐烦，电话声响起，又让我成立众人的笑柄，重点是，这该死的手机突然失灵似的，电话怎么样都关不上来，就拼命得响，让我愚到不行。。压力又来了。。。

这种种事情，让我觉得自己很烂，脾气坏，东西又做不好，有只会埋怨。。很差劲！！

健康有问题。。

觉得自己有健忘症。。什么都记不起。。刚才发生的也记不起。。像白痴一样。。很想做个仔细的身体检查。。又怕受不了打击。。