Today is the first day of my second last trimester. As planned, I've brought several travelling information to frns to determine where to hv our final graduation trip. One thing I cant understand, I was being urged by someone to withdraw a Hong Kong trip from C gang who were our close frns. I know and understand that this is sth tht hard to inform coz no one will willing to do thing like breaking a promise. However, since matter involve 2 of us, you cant urge me only bcoz the reason of you yourself cannot do that. I know it is relunctant to be settled, but I will prefer to find out ideas together than to push all things to me alone, it is clearly not fair and act of selfishness. You alone cant do that does not mean I should be forced to do sth you do not want to do. On that time, I felt a bit of hot headed, but in order to preserve a peaceful final year and friendship, I trained myself to manage this thing patiancely. I believe, this is her character that hard to be realised herself, maybe the ppl who make her to realise of this is not me.
Result will come out a day after tml, I hv a bad sense for this coming truth. I know it will roughly be worst, I should hv tiny up my mind to be ready to accept this bad fruit from my inner heart. Nevertheless, my mind told me that I'm yet to be ready, I seems to circumventing the truth. Now, I start feeling scare that I'm not able to accept the truth which is cruel. I scare I cant bear it and start thinking extremely to my future. I scare i will lost my direction and self-esteem again. I scare being looking down by others. I scare..... but nth cured...
GOD BLESS~
Monday, October 26, 2009
Monday, October 19, 2009
Hesitation with self-doubting
It has been long time I didnt write sth here. Time flies and time did reserve about half year for me to live without suffer from works, money and debt. However, i know i cant circumvent from these. Besides, I should have ready to manage and work on plan asap to adapt those up coming challeges.
Few months ago, mom did mention about house moving matters. Then we bought a house for 280 k yesterday. It sound like too rush when making this decision, it is quite hard to believe too whenever i recall bk this decision. Nevertheless, i think opportunity will not wait ppl. I just heositate why YN who is not the contributor is like more exciting and desire to buy tht house than us who were the main investors. Although, she own a same property near our unit, I think we should take into account her intention and put in concern from being taken advantages by someone.
Actually 4 of us own tht property i also cant believe that i edi have a property to worry before i can get a proper career. Anyway, since everything are subject to a proper arrangement then what i need to do is to have a proper financial management for future. As many people should know, there must have certain tendency of conflict when combine investment did among the sibling. However, nothing is impossible if all of us willing to work according to the plan.
Having a property is like feeding a child, therefore i should be more mature in every decision i will going to make and whatever i do.
23 of me, responsible for every success in my career, responsible for family, responsible for property and reaponsible for my partner and friends but should nvr forget to love myself too. So... I should be stronger and harsh to face those challenges, and i know i can do it!!! Add oil lor~~~
Few months ago, mom did mention about house moving matters. Then we bought a house for 280 k yesterday. It sound like too rush when making this decision, it is quite hard to believe too whenever i recall bk this decision. Nevertheless, i think opportunity will not wait ppl. I just heositate why YN who is not the contributor is like more exciting and desire to buy tht house than us who were the main investors. Although, she own a same property near our unit, I think we should take into account her intention and put in concern from being taken advantages by someone.
Actually 4 of us own tht property i also cant believe that i edi have a property to worry before i can get a proper career. Anyway, since everything are subject to a proper arrangement then what i need to do is to have a proper financial management for future. As many people should know, there must have certain tendency of conflict when combine investment did among the sibling. However, nothing is impossible if all of us willing to work according to the plan.
Having a property is like feeding a child, therefore i should be more mature in every decision i will going to make and whatever i do.
23 of me, responsible for every success in my career, responsible for family, responsible for property and reaponsible for my partner and friends but should nvr forget to love myself too. So... I should be stronger and harsh to face those challenges, and i know i can do it!!! Add oil lor~~~
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