I was thinking of what is my personal value when i was bury myself in notes. No doubt, i always trying to be outstanding. So far, the personal value for me is of cause not only my appearance but also the internal beauty. For me, the accomplishment about my appearance from others did not merit my personal value. Because, they normally apply a single word of "beautiful" as their accomplishment to u AND OTHERS. In other words, u were just at the same status with others most of the time. To become outstanding and the only way to distinguish u from others is to increase your personal value by upgrade your inner beauty such as intelligent, skills and own personality.. Ya.. I'm now striving for these value. Thus, i'll try my best to be the best...but ..it doesnt seems as easy as what i'm supposing to be.
Keep on stuying did not escalate my inner value at all. I was just being manipulated by those words and papers instead of absorb them to merit myself. Then i was thinking of one person and he is full of the spirit to chase and upgrade his own value by practical action. Through his blog, u will easily found his persevere to do anything that he hope to achieve, and infact he did achieved
them. Frankly, i would said that not many persons enable to be as decisive as him towards every challenges at hand. Thus, he was just a role model that worth to learn with. I hope i could get his personality as my life momentum in tackling any hardship that may occur to me.
When he is learning Japanese, he wrote his blog in Japanese as a daily practise without one's accord to improve himself!! Why dont i keep writing my blog in English to achieve Band 4??
Friday, April 25, 2008
Monday, April 7, 2008
hurt question, hurt conversation
XX : Can u explain what the lec talking about just now?
( I'm writing a shor note to interpret the words of lec, then lend to XX to refer)
XX: Huh.. (frowned to me and say) i cant understand..
Wow... her expression was just hurting me and my confidence was triple fall on tht time. This feeling raising some contradiction in my mind.. In fact, i wouldnt be hurt for such matter due to my english was undoubtly worst. I felt hurt means i'm trying to escape or still cannot accept something which is true. Ya... i found that i'm still escape from believing my weakness in Eng..I did nth to improve myself instead of eat, drink, playing, and wasting money. My poor english is about down to the average.. i'm not striving for what i want..I'm just an idiot who consuming day time without any practical planning.In fact.. I know all of my stupidity but just not willing to correct it. what's wrong v me??????? I just felt tht i'm getting sensitive and agressive when facing my weakness instead of challenge it with all my strength, stamina and determination. .
People were worry about the course programme issues while i had double to worry if compare with them. I need to worry to pass the Muet exam for me to graduate first then only worry the CLP exam and its approval. Since i cant pass the fundamental thing as a law student then how can i be so confident that i'll get such an approval to take CLP exam? I'm really look like a looser now.. it is the result from learning too much of inspiration words that had turn myself down otherwise. so.. i must remember tht i'm now at the status of down to the average..then only will work triple hard to get wat i want in study.. find bk ur true personality in study..dun escape..ok?
( I'm writing a shor note to interpret the words of lec, then lend to XX to refer)
XX: Huh.. (frowned to me and say) i cant understand..
Wow... her expression was just hurting me and my confidence was triple fall on tht time. This feeling raising some contradiction in my mind.. In fact, i wouldnt be hurt for such matter due to my english was undoubtly worst. I felt hurt means i'm trying to escape or still cannot accept something which is true. Ya... i found that i'm still escape from believing my weakness in Eng..I did nth to improve myself instead of eat, drink, playing, and wasting money. My poor english is about down to the average.. i'm not striving for what i want..I'm just an idiot who consuming day time without any practical planning.In fact.. I know all of my stupidity but just not willing to correct it. what's wrong v me??????? I just felt tht i'm getting sensitive and agressive when facing my weakness instead of challenge it with all my strength, stamina and determination. .
People were worry about the course programme issues while i had double to worry if compare with them. I need to worry to pass the Muet exam for me to graduate first then only worry the CLP exam and its approval. Since i cant pass the fundamental thing as a law student then how can i be so confident that i'll get such an approval to take CLP exam? I'm really look like a looser now.. it is the result from learning too much of inspiration words that had turn myself down otherwise. so.. i must remember tht i'm now at the status of down to the average..then only will work triple hard to get wat i want in study.. find bk ur true personality in study..dun escape..ok?
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