Falling into comfort zone~

2 days ago, I was back to classroom for ethic course conducted by JB Bar Council. It recall me those days in the campus, sitting together and listening to the lecturer,sharing and learning knowledges with peers who in the same generation, feeling of being naive and innocent is so enjoyable.Yet, it is not the samething to examination. I felt so unfamiliar and unskill when spending times for exam preparation, especially the impromtu preparation. We were given only 1 night to study the whole module which is bauky. The process for digesting those information was unbearable and miserable and I have to admire my persistency and perseverence during my school life. However, I found that such allegation doesnt make any sense because my current profession should supercede mere examination. Simply because we as a professional especially a Lawyer must alrealy well versed in certain skills such as language, thoughts, sensibility to the past and current issues, argument and writing skills, memories, commonsense, basic legal principles at out fingers tip and fast thinker. Therefore, it shouldnt be any problems for those who backed by these skills which are the foundation for a pupil.

When I think further and realized that I possessed non of the above, I puzzle like an illegitimate alien who is not suppose to stay in this legal field. After the hopeless exam, I felt so unendurable but have to ask myself a question that Did I enter a wrong career??? Why I cant see my skill and practical application when answering those questions? Indeed, I felt so uncomfortable and reluctant to answer them. Then something had crossed my mind that graduated as a Law degree holder will never guaranteed one to be a quality pupil in chamber. This allegation is cruel but it is a fact and I need to face the true as well. Then only I discovered the insight of a proverb that "It is not a matter of quantity but QUALITY does a matter". I think I should foster my QUALITIES before complaining of not being attached importance to handle tasks in firm.I should never binded by those little compliments which is not true.I should devote myself to endeavour to be a professional.Learn from the mistakes and become experience and well verse in Laws and social sensibility.I should not take opportunities as granted, make use of the chances given and appreciate what people had shared.

Be that as it may, I've gained a wonderful experience sharing some good times with judges and ethic law coursemates. Such ambience did make me to imagine that I'm one of the inner pupil.Well, I think I should get use to this kind of function as part of my career. Learn to communicate and to know our Law colleagues better for the simple reason that people connection is crucial in my profession.

12 Aug will be my short call day, works become more challenging. Hope my qualities grow by everyday learning experiences. Add oil baaa~~~