New week, new start.

It was a fruitful weekend I had have with my family. I've spent my Sat brought my mom to our new house cheking the installation of bed doors. Then, we back home to fetch Grace for brunch. After brunch, we went to visit Hua aunt by picking her up at her work place where I was alomost lost my way. Fortunately I was still able to find out the right way to her office based on my recollection of Pelangi's route. Then we went to have lunch with dim sam while chit chatting our recent life. To ours surprise, the just married cousin sis is going to give brith her 1st baby son this coming Feb without any one's knowing. This reflects we hadn't contact to each other quite a long time until we do not even know when the cousin sis was pregnant, then I suddenly feel that it is so important for us to spend time with family and at least to know what each other is doing.

On the same day in afternoon, I received a call from YTHT. It was a miscall. When I called back, Kak Su informed me that YYP was looking for me because he want to confirm my car plate number. Confirming my car plate numbers for what? I start finding his intention is interesting. Was it a signal of want to retain me? Kak Su didn't want to disclose more when I was trying to ask her why. Or maybe I've been thinking too much as if YYP want to retain me? The next thing that I was and I'm now thiking is what if he really think so? Am I going to allow myself to be retained or I should start bargain with him about the salary? What should I say if he is asking me for retention? How am I going to reject him with courtesy if I don't want to continue in his firm? This is all about the art of communication and I do really hope I can master this well. Whenever I'm thinking further on this issue, I have a strong desire that keep asking me to stay instead of leaving. But, my foresight keep signal me to look for a better one. This results in my dilemma.

No sooner, I realized the reason of my intuition that wanting me to stay, and that reason puzzle me. I've sense something went differently in term of my feeling to him. Instead of saying that I want to stay due to I prefer my current work place and colleagues, I shall admit the main reason is because of him. I don't know since when I've developed a kind of feeling which I don't wish to describe, and I also don't know how to describe it, I'm just couldn't bear to leave. I know this will definitely surprise my frinds and families who always listening to my crab to him, it is also very hard to convince myself about the change, from grind and bear with it to just staying at where you were being appreciated and felt gratitute to someone who teach you. All in all, I think I'm not mature enough to virtualize what I really want in my career. I have enough to all these nonsence feeling which going to ruin my thought and future. I should be more rationale when considering my future career. No matter how, I should always remember to think wisely and express my views with courtesy.

If he will ask me, "How do you think through out your half year of chambering?" I should possibly reply him about my views of litigation practice, my views to this firm, bosses and colleagues, my wishes of my future exposure so on and so forth. I hope that I could present my views in a more relaxing way that enable me to express what I want and what my direction is.