Whenever I'm opening my FB, I will definitely read a lot of status posted by friends and also the unknown friends. Previously, I will use to do the same thing like them, posting sentences or words to express my daily's feelings on FB's wall. We called this thing as 21st century attitude of communication. I found that people in this century use to communicate by implication and hints, the way of how people are communicate to each other is in the seemingly direct but implily being expressed via method, such as internet today. But, for those who knows to express their feelings well on the FB's wall are those who knows to live their life, I think. Because, they clearly know what they are doing everyday and they cant wait to share what they did with others, that attitude to me is positive and they are cofidently living their life in such a way that they are so happy to let people know how they live and how happily they are enjoying every second of life.
I lost this habit since I've started my chambering. Maybe I know I have nothing worth to share with others about my life. I don't think my life is unique enough to attract people's attention on me, and I don't need those attentions. Somehow, even I don't express anything, people seems like interested in knowing me and they have somehow created rumores for me. This is quite annoying, but in certains senses, it also meant that I'm popular, haha... Well, something serious to be considered recently. I felt puzzling in making choices, actually, I should say I'm facing what has been decided, or we can called it a reality. My observations told me that my boss is not going to retain me because I cant see any signal showed that he will retain a hopeless person or a potential lawyer burok like me. So, what i should do now is to find out a more potential me to be matched with a more potential firm. Time is precious to me, I should think more about my future instead of caring for those people who end up might not worth to work with.
People are realistic, they will not bother you as you don't have something to make use of, so they will just treating you like a fool, feeding you or give a little benefit by one or twice sumptuous lunch cannot make me a fool, even if it is, it will only be a short period of 3 more months. I just want me to wake up, i think I was too indulge in my own nostamania. I should learn how to let go and seeking for the better future that is belong tome. I wanna live for myself, not for others. I've met many law practitioners while wasting for nearly 4 hours in court today. Only then I found that, litigators are those who like wasting times for unnecessary waiting. Haiz.. what is the purpose for me to be a lawyer? Is lawyer a professional in waiting?? Or a professional in strking the balance of justice? Sometimes, I felt quite fareup in court, wearing smartly but going there to see the TP's pig face by spending hours of waiting. Am I going to watse the rest of my life by wasting times for the unnecessaries' waiting? What am I waiting for?
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