Holidays v Friends

Time flying fast, 1st sem of my 3rd year study had come to an end..2 and a half week break started while 2 n a half year to further in MMU..

Well.. i seems like being thru a lot of things during the time wc i didnt enter here..wow..it was hurt and made me felt a kind of disaster to really handle my relationship v my friend who i took them as sincere as i can .. sigh...

There was a day, she left home n sms me about she wanna move out frm the house.. its fine to me.. but one things that she really act beyond my expectation was she ask her bf to ask deposit frm me, n saying that i kept her deposit..wat a funny law student who ask me such a stupid question?? she was beyond me expectation of her commom intelligent about the rental matter... i hv been stroke by her stupid question instead of her irresponsible conduct... it reflect my disaster to be frn with such kind of stupid ppl for such a long time who once i really took her as a true frn provided v all my help n care.. finally ..shit only in return .. she was the second one who hurt me n destroy the true meaning of friendship..ya.. i admitted that everything happened must has it cause n effect.. i did admit that i may too concentrate in my study tht omitted to take good care to my frn.. somehow.. it sound really illogical tht she cant proceed her life without me? n i dun think she really need me every second tht till i cant leave frm her?she should say or express sth to me if she really felt sth to talk or ask frm me..her silence has proved her act done deliberately..i wouldnt know wat she want if she didnt open her mouth right?many ppl adviced me to take this as a lesson..well.. lesson about what?? lesson about i should increase my spec power to see or believe in ppl or lesson to change my own personality to suit everyone around me? frankly.. i hv done my best to my frns..n I NEVER DO ANY BAD THING TO THEM ESPECIALLY TO HER..why should her threat me in this way?? just because she hate my bf?? this is another illogical answer tht i couldnt understand frm a true frn as i considered is n it IS really hurt.. *^%%^%#$*%^&^$@#@#% DAMN BITCH!!!!

Anyway.. i still hv some who were truely n trustworthy..but all in JB .. since i considered them as trusworthy then I think i shouldnt doubt them in any way because as far as i'm concern.. they still appreciate me as sincere as I did too! Somehow...On the other side of my mind.. i will link them to tht evil woman tht i met..n it frightened me some time when i start imagine that what if everyone similar to her.. this world must become so evil like living in hell.

Well..talk sth interesting instead of her..

I hv a good time v my old schmate this noon n we talk a lot of things tht recall bk a lot of things during our sch time.. i miss those innocent time so much.. n maybe due to have being thru so many days of innocnet life b4 tht make me so innocent today tht always beilieve in wrong person..(hope tht i could wake up asap)..we discuss some of our schmate who had married, thier job n thier life recently.. lee feong not really change much.. thru her description. i can felt that there were a lot of ppl hv changed.. ( to more materialistic)... last few days...i hv some communication v san..she told me tht she wanna be a house wife.. n was asking her bf when he is going to marry her..she still staying cute as b4...just surprising me tht she was so eager to be a house wife instead of earn more money as others ppl did..she is a nice girl .. n worth to protect.. really hope tht her bf can really threat her as nice as wat she is thiking of...

There was another task for me in this hoildays...there is to prepare for the up coming muet exam in Nov..sigh.. second time edi.. really hope tht i can brush up my langauge within this limited holidays.. TO STRIKE THE TARGET ASAP!!