Christmas Eve 2007

I'm not a christian, yet, I LOVE to be one of them during christmas to feel tht kind of xmas ambience.

Christmas always make ppl feeling peace , warm and romantic..which is really enjoyful.

This Xmas...we plan to have a piece of cheese cake n watching the warm Xmas movie in front of PC. Although it is simple and not creative at all.. but..who care? the most important is that u r really enjoy the embience and the time u spend with ur love one during tht peace, warm and romantic moment....

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!!!

Happy but unsecure...

It left alomost 2 weeks for final exam..left 3 chapters not been summarized but dunno why really felt boring bout tht n i know my brain couldnt take it anymore, thts y i choose to lepak here.

Basically..i was got shocked by my BFL mid-term result today. As i was thinking i hv done wrong for the second question tht might render me as one of the failure among the coursemates but it doesnt happened. Indeed, I'm surprisingly become one of those who is the highest. Instead of surprise and curiosity, I'm not in the mood of happy when saw the number in the list.

I keep asking WHY after that.. If i told this to others,then they shall assume me as one of those who hypocrite. However, it is wat i felt today n thts a feeling of insecure that similar to the feeling tht i hv stole sth which not belong to me. I was in the dilemma that making me scare tht whether my lec had wrongly mark my paper, and i afraid of teh feeling of disappointed.

However, according to the accuratecy and competency of my lec tht can be seen during the usual classes, it was highly unlikely that she will hv the possibility to make such a mistake..My housemate ask me to let it be since it has no harm but benefit me...but.. i think..i should not talk much of this since i choose to accept it if not .. i myself will oso think that i'm a hyocrite person..
I decided to let the mark be but remeber the mistake that i did in the paper n keep it up for the next paper..Hope tht i will hv the real competency to handle it..

Hope to in the mood of X'mas~~

X'mas is around the corner.. listening to the X'mas songs to feel a kind of ambience tht make me in the mood of X'mas. However, it is always hard for me to hv a mood to celebrate X'mas..coz..every X'mas is reflect the coming final exam tht make me suffered than enjoy the X'mas..nth different and surprise for me in X'mas.. he only thing tht inspire my delighted mood will be the X'mas songs...

I've just finished my last paper for mid-term today which is the succssion paper..it spend the equal energy as i always spend in my midterm to sit for this midterm paper. Agian..I seems to have choose a wrong subject this sem..Even it seems like not easy to help to score, however, it is no doubt that i've learned a lot in this subject. Well...the subsequent day will have a lot of things to do eg assignment, theatre preparation, mooting discussion, final exam ...wow...i even dun dare to think about it, in fact , i shall face the true and that is no way for me to escape.LEARNING AND LEARNING TO DEVIDE MY TIME WISELY..but it DOESNT work for me after a Full planning...

After sitting for the last paper today..i'm start thinking like the holidays begin. Infact..it is never happen now. Although thr were a lot of thing to do..but just feel like wanna relax for a whole day. As a consequence, time for researching = time to watch drama n games, time for assignment = time to sleep, time to study = time to hang around the Melaka city...Nothing that i planned has been done. However, it is within my espectation. I need my brain to have a good rest today, andgive vent of my stress and pressure that i had kept from the 1st mid-term paper.Just hope that i can absorb those new things effectively after having a rest.

MERRY CHRISTMAS N HAPPY NEW YEAR~~

了无意义的日子。。。

这一个学期。。。好寂寞。。。
这个学期的我。。似乎比上学起来的沉闷与忧郁了。。。
这学期的我不喜欢到学府去了。。
每天都只期待早点下课。。避开那群莫名其妙的人。。
我变得不爱说话。。脸上的笑容也少了。。就像个被疾病缠身的病人。。
我变得不想再说什么。。因为就算你没说什么。。也会令人误会。。说了岂不是得罪了天下人。。
这种想法是偏激的。。没错。。但是。。种种的经验不得不让我如此偏激。。
发现道。。每次都是为了迁就别人而得罪了另一个人。。。被讨厌的总是只有我。。。
我的随和。。变成了被人利用而伤害他人的武器。。到最后。。黄河也洗不清了。。
很讨厌去学校就是很讨厌每次都要迁就别人。。看人脸色做事。。。总是提心吊胆自己的言辞，还怕不知在哪一秒又得罪了人。。最难受的就是看见那些曾几何时的好朋友。。。对你像比陌生人还要陌生。。。以往的嘻笑玩闹。。变成一句话也不愿再多说的‘石头人’坐在你身旁。。不懂什么原因。。但是。。强烈的感觉告诉是被排斥。。。每天就这样被这种讨厌的感觉折磨着。。痛心着。。好好经营的一段友谊。。似乎毁于一旦。。。怎么挽回。。都太迟了。。
所以。。每天的我。。只是想赶快上完课。。回家做真正的自己。。。
学校变成了一个让人心力交瘁的地方。。。。

First lonely day~~

Today is the first time for me to stay alone in house. Dear had followed his bro n sis bk to thier hometown in morning.He seems like very worry bout me tht to be alone in house.The sms n call was frequently made for me. Thus, i felt really warm for his concern on me.

Despite of the warm one , somebody did ruin my day this morning class. For those who know me, they shall understand who i mean. Although i'm quite being offended this morning, however i'm still trying to say to her in a good way as much as i can. Until now..she still argue the deposit to me..which a reasonable man will see unreasonable but she did. It is so awkward to expalin such common thing to her. I felt as such feeling coz i really dun want to reduce her personal value by answering her stupid question. Anyway.. due to the 100% supporter of mine... I'm not scared nor afraid at all. Just pity for her ignnorance n unopen minded.

Monday will be the Family law paper. Spend whole day to study but only finish 1 chapter. Tml should keep it up n memo as much as i can without being lured by any entertainment n rubbish thought. Good night Mr Blog!Wish me hv a sweet dream n all the best in future without meeting any bad ppl n obstacle anymore.

Tired..spiritually and physically..

It has been 3 weeks in 2nd sememster. 2 weeks didnt bk home edi.. the scene and ppl here that making me really wanna bk home. Actually... it seems like normal n nothing serious issue had happened on me.. But.. I feeling a kind of sad where the words impossible to express my feeling.. the most closest description may be the of facing the same ppl but different feeling to them or maybe their feeling are big different from last time to me.. Frankly..tht feeling is not actually good and making me sad often. This feeling make me feel a kind of my disaster in handling my relationship v others again.

The one who make me most sad is su. I really dunno what i had done wrong to her recently that making her drifted apart from me. The scene tht she always shows her concern n talking to me previously had edi gone nowadays. She even not willing to hv lunch v me but others who less close to her. When there was environment tht only me n lian v her.. she use to treat me as invisible and no single word to me..is totally not willing to talk to me at all.. Actually...in many time, not only her but i feel tht others classmate will oso like tht but not worse than her..at leats they still willing to entertain but for sure when there was a group event, they will choose to be together n wont ask to join... Nowadays.. finding someone to hv a meal v me become so hard.. Really feel like everyone is annoyed by me. In fact..ppl ask me for sth ..i did help..I dunno what i had done wrong.. Really hope to know the answer asap..Or.. I only can be the one who always being misunderstood by others in live,no mater how much good i did to them? Yes..I'm really care about how my frns looking on me..Am I so bad, ridiculous or unkind?? Pls just tell me instead of showing prejudice n being impersonal to me.It is totally unfair to me without giving me opportunity to speak. Becoz of su impersonality..I felt like being tortured in every theatre class.

This theatre class had thus become less interesting plus the drama topic that given by the lec was so dry. I think i might hv no fun at all in the rest of the classes. The only play tht i can act in the following class was as a person who being deserted by others, who prima facie hv a group of frn but infact was alone.

I know i should stop thinking so much coz ppl may not as what i'm thinking..n such a thinking may render me a childish person. However, some of the things is so obvious tht need not use ur eyes to see but heart can tell u what is going on.

Today,fortunately still can find nung yee hv lunch together.. if not, i'm lonely again... All this prob occur must hv a head factor to start tht.. Is my personality really a prob? Or.. someone had brainwashed others mind about me?? It is a difficult question.. If tht my prob..i really hope someone to tell me frankly n i would like to thank his or her very much.

Actually..today is kinda tired... hope to tell someone bout tht..but due to this issue has been raise for so many time...n.. can understand that ppl may not know me so well .. i cant blame n no mean to blame coz he was not me..ya... trying to learn to be lonely and optimistic by reading some self enrichment book but when everyday seeing the truth.. I start to doubt myself again...then reading the same book when back..like balance my emotional spirit in a day... dunno can tahan for how long... Maybe i really need to learn many especially to smile even i'm not happy at all..but...no matter how much i smile..it cannot solve the question tht confuse me for such a long time..."what i had done wrong tht ppl wanna treat me in tht way???" even to the frn i'm really tring to appreciate....

Eventful week~

It has been a while for me that did not post sth here. Nevertheless, it was quite a lot of new things happened during these few days.

First and foremost, the MUET exam is over. The questions were considered as easier than last time. However, i dun think i hv done my best during exam. Perhaps, the lack of confident that constituted me couldnt did well, anyway, lets pray n hope everything will be good as what i wish to be. For the reason that i hv put in reasonable effort that others ppl may not do.

Second, last semester result had out n for sure it was within my expectation that it drop but heavily.So, i think i'm quite lucky that able to sustain my cgpa around 3.53 while gpa 3.57, second upper but unsafe level. In order to continue increasing my performance, for sure, it is time for me to work harder this sem.

Third, S.Y n me had met out of the blue. It is not within my expectation but in order to reduce awkwardness ambiance, i had tried my best to pretend nothing was happening as what she act to me. The only thing tht i cant act as her was showing further concern instead of answering her question as well as having lunch together v her.For me, showing concern only can be done towards a real people who has the feeling of being concerned but fake concern.

Fourth, I'm really impressed by the first class of theatre. It was surprising me that there were quite a lot of my course mates who had taken this subject. Besides, there were my ex-team mates of World Chinese Debate Tournament who same class with me too. So far in the initial theatre class, I can feel some joy and happiness due to the participation of those familiar frns who can temporary forget the stress of study , play n laugh freely in the class together. The lec had taught us from the most simple lesson of how to breathe correctly as an actor, then followed by some interesting games. For me,it was interesting, relax and en joyfulness .

Fifth, I hv come bk to home town again for redo my ic. When i just reach jb, without being given time to drink some water and shower, i hv to go to the next event by accompy my mom, sis and aunts to have lunch, shopping and high tea.Its really OUT OF MY EXPECTATION that my sis who willing to treat us a great lunch with korean food which cost her hundred sth. Actually, it quite surprising me for her sudden generous. Anyway, hope my sis can feel happy when treat us those expensive foods.

Six, Finally i met San today. However, i felt quite sorry that ask her to acc me to redo my ic at tht stupid immigration office for about 6 hours but did for nothing. The reason is simple as normally can be thought by the general Malaysians for my failure to complete an ic. For those foreign, u may pity me for my experience that i hv went thru today. It seems like my fault to hv an unclear thumb print. It was fine to me that she has suggest me to redo my ic by manual system. However, can u ( government servants) to change ur culture or attitude that to ask someone to wait sth for nothing??They never know their attitude and culture will have cost someone a lot of pleasure time and energy. As i saw her doing so hard to scan my thumb print by using all ways within her intelligent, then, in order to save time n make things complete earlier and after she said she hv no idea for her particular pc to recognise my thumb print, i suggest her that did a manual one for me. Initially, she agree to do so, a moment later, she seems to change her stand n start saying sth which constitute a lot of fallacy in her statements, such as, ur finger print got prob ( so what?), u hv to wait for long time (as culture but till when??), then finally pop out 2 statements which i strongly think it were irrelevant to the previous statements she made, " Computer system hang la..( it was fine as what i can see ) and " Today u cant do it. ( for those reasons she stated above)"..What the fucking explanation that she had made? After all tht confusing reasons, my mental suddenly jam, i only felt extreme hunger and totally cant understand what she mean. Finally, i decided to stop wasting my time over thr n choose to leave from tht stupid place n hv my lunch v san asap at cs. Anyway, it left a numbers of questions in my mind; " No thumb print=no mycard=not a citizen in Malaysia?", " Is there only one way to complete an IC? ", " No idea= an excuse?", " Does gov office pc always hang (lousy excuse) due to problem wc cant solved by those servants exists?" , " Since anything can be excused, why should i(citizen) being taxed so much where part of the money is for u(stupid servants)???"

Seventh, spate of new policies have been introduced by gov which i think it was rather threatening public instead of giving benefit. I couldnt imagine what a society can change to be if numbers of Javanese migrate in malaysia as a recognise citizens. I couldnt believe how risky am i to walk on a street freely when thr were 2000 prisoners going to be released from jail one day. The gov seems like over estimate the competency of police work force in malaysia. I dunno why the gov can impose such irrational policies without consider the consequences n effects that may suffered from citizens? As we know malaysian are living in a democracy country, however, when imposing such policies, do they make any inquiry to us?? Or it is fake instead of real democracy???

MALAYSIAN, NO VALUE, NO POTENTIAL, A CITIZEN WHO TAKING HIGH RISK LIVING IN A DISAPPOINTED AREA WITH SPEECHLESS AND HOPELESS FEELING ...

Fake vs Real

Fake and Real. Well, this 2 words are often confusing one's life especially me. This complicated feeling become worse when i just received a mail from one fake friend who asking me about fake and real question. The contain is asking one to reply or not to reply base on one's judgment towards that particular friend by Fake and Real. I couldn't explain why am i be struck dumb by such question and i start falling in confusion.I'm start thinking of many things again.It is because, according to her intelligent, it is really strange that she was still dare to ask me of such question. It has been more than one year that our friendship had come to deadlock, and also i weren't find anything that seems to make our friendship retrievable during those period. As what i think this situation could be seen by those reasonable men who may not as smart as her. Thus, i felt astonish to receive that kind of mail from her who is impossible become ignorant about the Real between us instead of expecting a Fake reply from me.

Why am i consider it as Fake reply?? It is because, after I've been through a lot of struggle in my mind, i reach a conclusion that, since i do not see her as Real, why should I deceive myself to reply her? Indeed, i think that my reply may testify that I'm really Fake.Due to too many of hit that I've been through in managing a relationship with friend, I've no idea to define Fake and Real friendship. Because, I'm just a injured tiger which afraid of being hurt again, defensive and lost of confident and trust to others.So please never ask me to judge, give definition or explain the meaning of friendship or any question about Real or Fake, Good or Bad and Angel or Evil, because I'm really sick of doing this.

So far for me, i will just threat everyone instead of my family,bf , san san and ging sin as people
but nothing. I mean no additional affectionate feeling. I think it is common for others to do so but I'm just too innocent that not use to this impersonal skill before.In short, being kind to people is good whereas being impersonal may not seems good but somehow, on contrary, it reflect the Real of yourself and prevent from being hurt by others who Fake.

still Thinking of...

Yesterday, our great entrepreneur had passed away with the age of 90. For me, he was leaving from this world without any regret due to his successful background during his life.His character had formed his great feats and brilliant achievements today that are worth to learn and i do hope i hv the same determination and grit as him in achieving every goal in my life. However, i still need to admit tht the very weakness of me are being easily influenced and felt pressure by others. It always interrupt my determination n decrease my self-esteem in many times. This is a looser characteristic..i dun want to be a looser, neither do others... i think.. but . I just use to predict many things wc is useless n helpless.. it was out of my control..I seriously think tht i hv to stop thinking those wc are not happen.. it was no benefit at all and make my confident lost.

So far i had done alot of exercise which i hv no idea whether it is really helpful or not.. but just put in many effort as i can v conscious... it sound silly..but.. i cant think it was a silly things but just put my effort forward without thinking of those negative consequence, becoz i knew i edi done sth which were positive for me.

Today.. I had again felt disappointed due to my failure to complete the task wc i decided to finish today. Firstly, i am again carelessly forgot the rest day of tht clinic was today but still walking to thr v mom n my little niece. Second, I'm innocently thought tht our Mycard was a useful card tht can do anything tht is legal in Malaysia. Thing comes different when i step into CIMB bank to ask for open a permanent account. Tht lady who i felt sloppy was saying to me tht their machine cant read the detail of the chip in my card, then ask me to come again. Wat a suck machine tht wasted my time again??and wat is my card doing? It was either the prob of my card or tht particular machine.

Well..no matter tht is which of each prob , thr must be the service problem, tht reflected either the government or bank. If thr is my card problem, then it should be sth happen to the chip in my card tht is unfunction and it will be possibly for me to renew my IC. So next time i hope the new ic chip will not get rusty easily so tht the "particular" machine in bank can read it.Then, i think it is blameless if tht is the machine problem, becoz majority of the machine in bank or government department were useless..or u can consider it as a things tht use to absorb the electricity in our country.. coz as u know our country still hv " plentiful " of natural sources including electricity tht waiting to be consumed. Finally, tht lady require a driving license as a priority document which overtook the place of IC .In short, bring ur driving license out regardless whether u r driving or not, becoz the driving license (although dun hv the 'particular' chip) is often usefull than Mycard nowadays.

Being in Holidaying

It has been a week to hv my holidays in JB. Although i still hv 2 more weeks to go, however, i think it is not enuf for me to prepare for the upcoming MUET exam. Sigh.. it is the second time for me to sit for this paper. I suppose that even i hv 2 years to prepare is oso considered as not enuf for me.It is the matter of language but nth. If i'd hv the environment as now to learn this language, i believe it is nth difficult to me. Yet, i think it was too late to master it within the period of 2 weeks. However..it doesn't mean that i will choose abstention from pursuing my goal,because i still believe in miracle.Well.. all the statement tht i hv made sounds a kind of fallacy. But.. this is the way for me to think when solving a prob or facing sth tht i hv lack of confident to handle it.

Ofcoz..miracle wont come out if u didnt do sth wc in fact materialize it. Even u might not do much for it, but at least is beyond a reasonable man would think is enuf. Thus, i'm trying my best to do as many exercise as i can, since ppl always said " practise make perfect". Yet, i hope tht this phrase would really true.

Currently, i'm quite interested in reading n watching Britain old fiction novel such as Pride n Prejudice, Jane Austen n Amazing Grace. Well..I'm really impress of the way they spoke, their gentle expression, the scene and outfit in which had reflected the ancient England life and society. At the mean time, i did learn their pronunciation and the words tht they use to express their feeling wc i considered it as one of the way to improve myself.

Other than tht, i'm start reading a book regarding to self-disciplined. I think tht the author has used the most simple language that enable the reader especially like me to understand every word in it easily without further refer to any dictionary. The sentence structure is simple n is able to express the feeling of author completely. I'm quite amaze with it n also trying to write my essay in such sentence structure.

Instead of reading, I also play a role of nanny in taking care of my little niece. As far as i'm concern, I think she is the smart one. She knows to speak a lot of things tht sometimes shocked me. Yet, the gift from god may not guarantee her future. I still believe tht the brightness future of a child is all depend on how she is willing to brush up her mind, thinking, manner, passionate upon certain things and so forth. Thus, the brightness of her life only then be determined.

Next sem onward, I will start my U life without any course mate under one roof. Although it is not a bad news, however, i still can sense a kind of wariness n insecure in the bottom of my heart. Maybe i'm a person who is easily being influenced by others. Yet, my bf n his bro was a kind of easing going person toward their study, which is totally different from me. I'm scare of losing my own personal purpose n target in pursuing my study goal. I'm a person who prefer a little bit stress environment in doing sth which related to my goal. Therefore, i think i should do some mental preparation from being influenced by such foreseeable environment.

Always remember, a self-disciplined student would typically say, " I'm trying to build skills and acquire knowledge that will improve my life and my career. " The less disciplined student is more likely to say: "I need to do well in this course so that i can graduate and get a job."

Holidays v Friends

Time flying fast, 1st sem of my 3rd year study had come to an end..2 and a half week break started while 2 n a half year to further in MMU..

Well.. i seems like being thru a lot of things during the time wc i didnt enter here..wow..it was hurt and made me felt a kind of disaster to really handle my relationship v my friend who i took them as sincere as i can .. sigh...

There was a day, she left home n sms me about she wanna move out frm the house.. its fine to me.. but one things that she really act beyond my expectation was she ask her bf to ask deposit frm me, n saying that i kept her deposit..wat a funny law student who ask me such a stupid question?? she was beyond me expectation of her commom intelligent about the rental matter... i hv been stroke by her stupid question instead of her irresponsible conduct... it reflect my disaster to be frn with such kind of stupid ppl for such a long time who once i really took her as a true frn provided v all my help n care.. finally ..shit only in return .. she was the second one who hurt me n destroy the true meaning of friendship..ya.. i admitted that everything happened must has it cause n effect.. i did admit that i may too concentrate in my study tht omitted to take good care to my frn.. somehow.. it sound really illogical tht she cant proceed her life without me? n i dun think she really need me every second tht till i cant leave frm her?she should say or express sth to me if she really felt sth to talk or ask frm me..her silence has proved her act done deliberately..i wouldnt know wat she want if she didnt open her mouth right?many ppl adviced me to take this as a lesson..well.. lesson about what?? lesson about i should increase my spec power to see or believe in ppl or lesson to change my own personality to suit everyone around me? frankly.. i hv done my best to my frns..n I NEVER DO ANY BAD THING TO THEM ESPECIALLY TO HER..why should her threat me in this way?? just because she hate my bf?? this is another illogical answer tht i couldnt understand frm a true frn as i considered is n it IS really hurt.. *^%%^%#$*%^&^$@#@#% DAMN BITCH!!!!

Anyway.. i still hv some who were truely n trustworthy..but all in JB .. since i considered them as trusworthy then I think i shouldnt doubt them in any way because as far as i'm concern.. they still appreciate me as sincere as I did too! Somehow...On the other side of my mind.. i will link them to tht evil woman tht i met..n it frightened me some time when i start imagine that what if everyone similar to her.. this world must become so evil like living in hell.

Well..talk sth interesting instead of her..

I hv a good time v my old schmate this noon n we talk a lot of things tht recall bk a lot of things during our sch time.. i miss those innocent time so much.. n maybe due to have being thru so many days of innocnet life b4 tht make me so innocent today tht always beilieve in wrong person..(hope tht i could wake up asap)..we discuss some of our schmate who had married, thier job n thier life recently.. lee feong not really change much.. thru her description. i can felt that there were a lot of ppl hv changed.. ( to more materialistic)... last few days...i hv some communication v san..she told me tht she wanna be a house wife.. n was asking her bf when he is going to marry her..she still staying cute as b4...just surprising me tht she was so eager to be a house wife instead of earn more money as others ppl did..she is a nice girl .. n worth to protect.. really hope tht her bf can really threat her as nice as wat she is thiking of...

There was another task for me in this hoildays...there is to prepare for the up coming muet exam in Nov..sigh.. second time edi.. really hope tht i can brush up my langauge within this limited holidays.. TO STRIKE THE TARGET ASAP!!

WHATS WRONG TO ME??

Recently...i felt i have changed a lot..I'm hardly to accept what ppl say and i'm almost not happy with everything as what i can thing of my mind. I even can feel unhappy to a person who is justtalking v me something without any bad intention..How does this feeling raise in my heart?? I cant explain..n is curious oso..

Sometimes..i use to be defensive to everything...without any reason..however..i hate this kind of characteristic of mine...it just like an onset disease which come summarily without of my control over it..thus..i always found that i'm being in the siuation of paradox where i found no answer to my radiculous emotion..ppl asking me why..i dunno how to say..it seems like i hv lost my linguistic intelligent..what i know was..i felt insecure in most of the time...lost of confident..lost of trust to anyone around me..forgetfullness until i hate myself so much..

I cant explain why i seems like lost my direction to do sth worth and become slower n slower when doing a simple task after move to a new environment..i felt i hv chosed many wrong decision that lead to my character nowadays..like..i choose to not join su as a group of assignment..like..i choose to follow herin doing sth where none of understanding being returned..while i choose to lost a person who willing to understand me..how stupid am i??n how long i can carry on for my stupidness??just trying to rescue the consequence of my wrong decision...can i do that??Hope so..

After move in here..only know there were the ppl who really need somebody feed like a child when settling some general n personal things..thier requirement to parents is really out of my expectation..fortunately my dear was not a members of them..just pity for thier parents..working so hard until forget to teach thier children bout the way to pay money even they hv provide money for them..thier action had indirectly reflect the failure of thier parents..so never help ur children in everything until they may not know to use the spoon to eat one day..

My temper is greatly bad today..due to many factors today.. eg: unconsidered's frn, unable to interview, quarrel v bear again for minor thing but even it is my fault..i still think that he never learn to respect his gf by shouting n some idiot words tht he can say out..time changing as ppl will really change..those scene tht will never be seen when we just together had embodied day after a day..so what? any solution??or saying breakup?? none of this i can think of..ya..i'm timid n braveless..should i think of those stupid things to live my life in U?? never n ever..just change my personaliy..to win the true frn tht i hv lost..gv a small hand to those who dunno the meaning of frn.. set aside the bad of my dear..catch up the study in class..then should be more happier on the up coming days right?? Mr Blog..am i right??