I hadn't check in to write a little about me after i was changed a new firm. I have my 3rd months of legal practice since called to the bar in April. I have done and experienced quite something along the 3 months practice. I'd experienced the excruciating treatment by the banker; I've experienced the helplessness of being a conveyancing lawyer whose professionality is always being insulted; I'd been missing my ex-colleagues and bosses that make me paying 2 trips to my ex-firm to cure my nostalgically.
I hereby express my true feeling of being the 3 months lawyer. I did quite obviously feel that I was being nurtured by the realistic and higher responsibility that making me able think and act like a lawyer naturally. I wouldnt concern so much on how people will look at me as a crab. On other hand, I'll start motivating myself to do and prepare myself, spiritually and physically like a lawyer. Speak like a lawyer and act like a lawyer.I found that why I always cannot express my words during my pupillage is because of lacking confidence, which had been struck too many times by my over concerns on people's advice.
Personal attitude is very important for me now instead of the financial outstanding.How to become a better one is not always by comparing but personal education and attitudes which shall determine what kind of lawyer of me.
YYP contacted me recently and I was quite surprise that he was able to remember my birthday and he shared his glory with me. Yes, we won the TP case in which I'd prepared 12 volumes of NOP for him. The victory seems to make everything worth it, and I believe he must be very happy.
Bear has some concerns on my happiness of sharing YYP's glory. He discovered my over happiness that have outdo my happiness to him. I was denying his analysis which deem radiculous to me, but after thinking deeper a bit, I think I was over react the happiness of glory, and I found that I enjoy glory more than the time spend with him, in certain extent, I can't deny that what Bear was thinking is quite true to me.
Glory, Family and Friendship. To strike a balance among all this is not easy.
Friday, July 22, 2011
Monday, May 30, 2011
沉淀于心中他熟悉的背影。。。
有位不相熟的学妹最近联系上了我。她说她很有兴趣想要到老杨那儿实习，还问了我许多“程度”上如何被录取的问题。我的回应是充鼓励的，因为我觉得老杨那儿无法让我发挥，并不等于学妹也跟我一样。或许她比我好一百倍吧！只怕我很可能以经拆了学校的招牌，学妹也可能因为我而进不去了。。真是该死的又想太多了。 反而， 我该回羡慕学妹吧！能呆在那儿，又能有所发挥，是最好不过的事了！希望她能做到我没办法做到的事吧!
我的名字终于被登记在律师公会的名册上了，这也表示真正的风险也即将来临。 今天就让我体会到了风险的滋味。我的书记竟然出了非常显着的差错，要不是顾客好意提醒，后果可不小。我这才深深体验到踩着钢线过日子恐惧，所以万万不能再大意了！我真不想一开始就玩完，那我的人生可说是场闹剧了！
回家路上，经过了以往熟悉的路，果然遇见了熟悉的他和老二。从他们迎面而来的方向，大概可知道他们刚到太平咖啡厅享用了杯咖啡和烤面包，看他们穿得如此白净的长袖衬衫，大概是边喝边讨论下午的诉讼审讯吧！看着他们匆忙的朝我这儿方向来，心里突然感到特别欣喜，本想要打声招呼，但当他们越走越近，看得越来越清晰时，我不晓得为什么自然而然的就把头别过去了。那种感觉，似乎从心底有感而发的。。突然来的勇气。。消失了。别过了头的我，踩着油门，只好懦弱的看着他在我的望后镜里小小的背影，往前公司走去，看着他还是像以往一样硬朗的身子，走的还是特别的快，心中就充满了喜悦，真希望他会越来越好:) 因为他永远是我的恩师，非常欣赏又尊敬的恩师
我的名字终于被登记在律师公会的名册上了，这也表示真正的风险也即将来临。 今天就让我体会到了风险的滋味。我的书记竟然出了非常显着的差错，要不是顾客好意提醒，后果可不小。我这才深深体验到踩着钢线过日子恐惧，所以万万不能再大意了！我真不想一开始就玩完，那我的人生可说是场闹剧了！
回家路上，经过了以往熟悉的路，果然遇见了熟悉的他和老二。从他们迎面而来的方向，大概可知道他们刚到太平咖啡厅享用了杯咖啡和烤面包，看他们穿得如此白净的长袖衬衫，大概是边喝边讨论下午的诉讼审讯吧！看着他们匆忙的朝我这儿方向来，心里突然感到特别欣喜，本想要打声招呼，但当他们越走越近，看得越来越清晰时，我不晓得为什么自然而然的就把头别过去了。那种感觉，似乎从心底有感而发的。。突然来的勇气。。消失了。别过了头的我，踩着油门，只好懦弱的看着他在我的望后镜里小小的背影，往前公司走去，看着他还是像以往一样硬朗的身子，走的还是特别的快，心中就充满了喜悦，真希望他会越来越好:) 因为他永远是我的恩师，非常欣赏又尊敬的恩师
Sunday, May 22, 2011
In the journey~~
Lately, I've found that all previous post of mine are dealing with job and career. Then, I start to realize as if my life is only concerning to job and career but none of friends and familoes' life, if there is, are those unhappy memory.Am I living an unhappy life always? Quite doubtful.
I was attending my first signing at Horizon Hills with 2 groups of clients, mom and Grce. Haha... I did not purposely to bring them over there to witness my performance of how I was attnding my clients. It's just to save time for shopping. I was just wondering why is it so tedious for me to first doing something which is new to me. The first client, who is an Indian was really gave me some hard-time to complete the signing process. He was asking me the loan agreement a clauce by a clause as if I'm the author of that Agreement.
In fact, he has made me wait and waste an hour in the morining, yet, he still asking so much of unneccessary questions and bragging his wealthiness by property investment. He also contented to sue people and insist on wanted me to name a few of those famous litigator who is expert in land dispute. I've no choice but to give him YYP's contact and name card. Later on, I just realize that I shouldn't because YYP might mind it. With due respect to him, I was later on acknowledge this person to him by sms. He wasn't reply me for a few hours until evening, he replied with a "thank you" and further on with another question to me: How's your new job?" Apparently, he is still concern on his pupil that making me a little comfort.
Then, I carefully reply (still, he is my ex-boss and I have duty to my new boss) my current working progress in conveyancing to him, adding on my opportunity to attend client for loan agreement that morning, and followed by another request for asking him to inform me the decision of TP which is going to come out end of May. He then replied: "Sure, have a good weekend". Do I miss him? To a certain extent, I admit, I do. And I believed, so did he. Otherwise, he would not want to know more about of the current me.
I was ended up using more than 1 hour to entertain that indian fellor. Finally, my second groups sounded on me. I admitted that I was bad in handling that situation, and I do hope they don't complaint me. After my clint's unpleasure signal, I was then faster entertain them, for sure, with their complaint to the inconsiderable first client. By that time, it was almost 2 pm, and I was hungry. I really pity to my mom and sis who have been waiting for me from morning to afternoon, at last, due to can't stand for the hunger for lunch, they've already have their lunch in the the golf club.
After all have done, we move on our shopping day. Then, to Josvin's house to visit my 2 little angels. Joanne's piano has improved tremendously, she now playing steadily without extra guidance or the background music. She start playing some funny games in her school, being a husband or wife, building up a family with her friends which is cute and adorable. MJ was as naughty and mischevious as before. Running here and there, stick with his mommy like a mommy boy... I can see that Josvin herself has grown and know to pay more respect to Mom after last unhappy incident. I hope she can really grow up, be a good mommy to her children and a filial daughter to Mom.
Sunday, I sent Grace to CS and I've tried to use my daily season parking card to have my car parked as usual. Consequently, my card was permitted even during the weekend. It was great as I can always comeover CS parking by using the card without paying such expensive parking fees. Grace got her Bonus after visted the Taro fortune teller and had bought a bracelet from them. It sounds efficacious which enticing me to have a try. Shouldn't I believe in fortune teller??? Grace bought me a set of cosmetic and in exchange of a luch from me. Ha, worth still!
This is my happy weekend with family. Nevertheless, I'm more looking forwards to a smooth traffic tomorrow to start my fruitful working days.
I was attending my first signing at Horizon Hills with 2 groups of clients, mom and Grce. Haha... I did not purposely to bring them over there to witness my performance of how I was attnding my clients. It's just to save time for shopping. I was just wondering why is it so tedious for me to first doing something which is new to me. The first client, who is an Indian was really gave me some hard-time to complete the signing process. He was asking me the loan agreement a clauce by a clause as if I'm the author of that Agreement.
In fact, he has made me wait and waste an hour in the morining, yet, he still asking so much of unneccessary questions and bragging his wealthiness by property investment. He also contented to sue people and insist on wanted me to name a few of those famous litigator who is expert in land dispute. I've no choice but to give him YYP's contact and name card. Later on, I just realize that I shouldn't because YYP might mind it. With due respect to him, I was later on acknowledge this person to him by sms. He wasn't reply me for a few hours until evening, he replied with a "thank you" and further on with another question to me: How's your new job?" Apparently, he is still concern on his pupil that making me a little comfort.
Then, I carefully reply (still, he is my ex-boss and I have duty to my new boss) my current working progress in conveyancing to him, adding on my opportunity to attend client for loan agreement that morning, and followed by another request for asking him to inform me the decision of TP which is going to come out end of May. He then replied: "Sure, have a good weekend". Do I miss him? To a certain extent, I admit, I do. And I believed, so did he. Otherwise, he would not want to know more about of the current me.
I was ended up using more than 1 hour to entertain that indian fellor. Finally, my second groups sounded on me. I admitted that I was bad in handling that situation, and I do hope they don't complaint me. After my clint's unpleasure signal, I was then faster entertain them, for sure, with their complaint to the inconsiderable first client. By that time, it was almost 2 pm, and I was hungry. I really pity to my mom and sis who have been waiting for me from morning to afternoon, at last, due to can't stand for the hunger for lunch, they've already have their lunch in the the golf club.
After all have done, we move on our shopping day. Then, to Josvin's house to visit my 2 little angels. Joanne's piano has improved tremendously, she now playing steadily without extra guidance or the background music. She start playing some funny games in her school, being a husband or wife, building up a family with her friends which is cute and adorable. MJ was as naughty and mischevious as before. Running here and there, stick with his mommy like a mommy boy... I can see that Josvin herself has grown and know to pay more respect to Mom after last unhappy incident. I hope she can really grow up, be a good mommy to her children and a filial daughter to Mom.
Sunday, I sent Grace to CS and I've tried to use my daily season parking card to have my car parked as usual. Consequently, my card was permitted even during the weekend. It was great as I can always comeover CS parking by using the card without paying such expensive parking fees. Grace got her Bonus after visted the Taro fortune teller and had bought a bracelet from them. It sounds efficacious which enticing me to have a try. Shouldn't I believe in fortune teller??? Grace bought me a set of cosmetic and in exchange of a luch from me. Ha, worth still!
This is my happy weekend with family. Nevertheless, I'm more looking forwards to a smooth traffic tomorrow to start my fruitful working days.
Friday, May 13, 2011
My initial week ...
I was late in the very first day of work. The traffic jam in JB is getting serious nowadays. Almost every 2 days a week will encounter road accident which triggered heavy jam. I ended up 30 minutes late in office.
As what I've always looked for, Mr Teh is now delegating files consisting conveyancing and litigation to me. For conveyancing, I'm so far handling those problem files which are difficult in the sense that they are considered alien to me. It was difficult yet challenging, as I should know nothing is easy unless I'm willing to put enough effort to overcome every obstacle I've faced. Given that my status has been changed to an LA who bearing responsibility not only as a professional but a staff who expected to reduce boss' burden and to assist firm to develop its business. Therefore, despite of my inexperience in the area of conveyancing, I shouldn't expect to be spoon feeded by others. I should now pick up this area soonest as possible then only can monitor those files efficiently.
Apart from the conveyancing, I was also entrusted with litigation files. The latest files required me to draft statement of claim and summary judgment which are the basic in litigation practice. Others files include drafting Notice and letters to various parties. Well, these are the job areas that I was previously looking for, which are not available in YTHT. I'm glad and rejuvenated by current working condition and working opportunities given. Yet, due to practical experiences throughout the chambering period that I've not sufficiently gain, I did worry for my incapability to handle those liti files which are supposed not a problem to me. I did bother my unfamiliarity to certain basic that let Mr Teh down and that will affect his impression on me. I hope I won't let this thing happened to me.
All in all, I'm just hoping that I'm able to survive and subsisting in right track to strive my goal in future.
As what I've always looked for, Mr Teh is now delegating files consisting conveyancing and litigation to me. For conveyancing, I'm so far handling those problem files which are difficult in the sense that they are considered alien to me. It was difficult yet challenging, as I should know nothing is easy unless I'm willing to put enough effort to overcome every obstacle I've faced. Given that my status has been changed to an LA who bearing responsibility not only as a professional but a staff who expected to reduce boss' burden and to assist firm to develop its business. Therefore, despite of my inexperience in the area of conveyancing, I shouldn't expect to be spoon feeded by others. I should now pick up this area soonest as possible then only can monitor those files efficiently.
Apart from the conveyancing, I was also entrusted with litigation files. The latest files required me to draft statement of claim and summary judgment which are the basic in litigation practice. Others files include drafting Notice and letters to various parties. Well, these are the job areas that I was previously looking for, which are not available in YTHT. I'm glad and rejuvenated by current working condition and working opportunities given. Yet, due to practical experiences throughout the chambering period that I've not sufficiently gain, I did worry for my incapability to handle those liti files which are supposed not a problem to me. I did bother my unfamiliarity to certain basic that let Mr Teh down and that will affect his impression on me. I hope I won't let this thing happened to me.
All in all, I'm just hoping that I'm able to survive and subsisting in right track to strive my goal in future.
Monday, May 9, 2011
S C Teh & Azura--- A brand new beginning of my Legal Career
This is the first day in Messrs S C Teh & Azura. Although I'd have working as an attachee in the same firm about 2 years ago. Yet, the feeling now is very much different than the previous one. It's not simply the change of my status from a pupil to a full fresh lawyer, it's also because of the change of co-workers, environment and field of works.
My first day was started off by a very unlucky morning which I was trapped by a heavy traffic jam. I was so terrible that reach office 30 minutes late. The boss was sitting front of the entrance, and he still threw me an embarrass smile despite of my late entry. Then, he starts explain those files which were putting on my table. When explaning bankruptcy files, I was stupidly, unconciuosly divulge to him that "I did once before". Then he was like quite shocking by knowing the fact of "doing once" only in my chambering period. Ya... This situation was foreseeable throughout my pupillage when I was trapped in an ivory tower of doing only NOP. What to do, not familiar means not familiar, it's better to be honest to boss now than to pretend you know sth which you dunno in future. Before he left for KL, he asked me to join a developer meeting with him tml noon. Well, I shouldn't let this opportunity go so easily this time, I must show to boss that I'm able to do things, to handle sth confidently and able to mingle with client.
All staff were same as before but I dunno why, their attitude seems like changing quite a lot to me. They become more serious when talking with me, no talking nonsense with me anymore. Or my face has been too serious to them? Especially Margaret, her face is damn serious. Not like before anymore. She was less patient to me. This is time to observe and to treat each of them appropriately. Ms Pai treat me lunch today. Although we chat to each other but I can see that we have less common topic. Hope that time can get us closer to each other.
My first day was started off by a very unlucky morning which I was trapped by a heavy traffic jam. I was so terrible that reach office 30 minutes late. The boss was sitting front of the entrance, and he still threw me an embarrass smile despite of my late entry. Then, he starts explain those files which were putting on my table. When explaning bankruptcy files, I was stupidly, unconciuosly divulge to him that "I did once before". Then he was like quite shocking by knowing the fact of "doing once" only in my chambering period. Ya... This situation was foreseeable throughout my pupillage when I was trapped in an ivory tower of doing only NOP. What to do, not familiar means not familiar, it's better to be honest to boss now than to pretend you know sth which you dunno in future. Before he left for KL, he asked me to join a developer meeting with him tml noon. Well, I shouldn't let this opportunity go so easily this time, I must show to boss that I'm able to do things, to handle sth confidently and able to mingle with client.
All staff were same as before but I dunno why, their attitude seems like changing quite a lot to me. They become more serious when talking with me, no talking nonsense with me anymore. Or my face has been too serious to them? Especially Margaret, her face is damn serious. Not like before anymore. She was less patient to me. This is time to observe and to treat each of them appropriately. Ms Pai treat me lunch today. Although we chat to each other but I can see that we have less common topic. Hope that time can get us closer to each other.
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Mixed feeling....
Going back to YTHT to clear up my stuff today. To my surprise, Yeo bought me a court luggage worth RM 580. Haiz.. such a heavy gift did make me guilty of not retaining. When I passed him the disc, he was asking me whether kak su has given me something? Then I asked which thing? He said, don't know, later she will pass it to you. Just felt funny why he cant passed it to me? But I was very happy to see he's using the pen that I gave him, he clipped it in his shirt's pocket :) Then we have a delightful lunch together with TEE. Still, although we do not have much topic to share with, but, the feeling of having lunch with him is rather relax than before. He asked me about where to have my holidays, and start introducing me some delicious restaurant in Melaka... His concern to me was rather make me guilty. Why treat me so nice? Haiz... I must not disappointing him anymore, not only him but to my family and friend.
Thursday, April 28, 2011
A day marked the first day of my legal career--- I've called :D
Just like a blink of eyes, I'm admitted by the Bar Council as one of the members in the Bar as an Advocate & Solicitor. So, I've burnt my 9 months of being an silly and knowing nothing crab junior, who allowed making mistakes without bearing any liability. Now, everything has changed. People asked me, what's your feeling of changing your status from a "Rookie" pupil to a full fledge Lawyer? The only thing I sensed is, I'm going to paly a game in my career with all the undertaking, risk and liabilities. A moment later after the ceremony of the admission, I start to realise the important of growing traits of a professional. I begin to mind my words and attitude when talking to people as well as the quality in me.
I was touched by my fellow comrades, families, good friend and colleagues who spending time to attend the reception and ceremony, to be my eye witness of this memorable moment. Although Yeo wasn't came for robbing ceremony, but I've received his wishes and blessing by sms and spiritually detaction. He showed me a vivid example of a lawyer--> Highly commitment to your profession, to your firm and to your client. He got every trait that I must learn despite of those bad habits that he used to revealed when interacting with people.
But then, due to not staying in the firm who groomed me this period, people keep asking the reason of leaving and so on and so forth. "Since your master was so dedicated, why leave?" "Your master really want you to stay, why you leave, he is so sad, you know?" Ya...It's a pretty sad thing for not remained in the firm. He is kind, nice, dedicated, a mentor to me. Yet, this is nothing to with the issue of staying. People also have a incorrect concept - atleast to me, its incorrect - people always think that we should spend 1 or 2 years for your master's firm as a token of appreciation, regardless it had been known to you that, this master's firm will not be your choice for long term basis, and it has zero prospect to you! I admit that when peopel say he is sad for my leaving, it did trigger my compassion to him and to the firm. Maybe I'm a type of very sensible and rational human being, that compassionate feeling doesn't paster me for long, I immediately wake up and understand that I did not make a wrong choice by realizing the factual unsuiltable prospect of the firm. I've made a convincing conclusion to me that, this firm is good in terms of being fostered and groomed by the boss ; yet this is not a place that I'm looking forward to expertise my career and self-exposure.
I'm currently having my 1 week holiday before I join the new but familiar firm. The firm that I did my attchment and the firm that to commence my legal career--> S C Teh & Azura. This is a chance to see the change, the new inspiration and my ability to proof to myself that I can be a very good lawyer if not in YTHT and I can survive and exposed much more than before. Be humble and improve the needed quality to accomodate my future career as a Professional Lawyer :D
I was touched by my fellow comrades, families, good friend and colleagues who spending time to attend the reception and ceremony, to be my eye witness of this memorable moment. Although Yeo wasn't came for robbing ceremony, but I've received his wishes and blessing by sms and spiritually detaction. He showed me a vivid example of a lawyer--> Highly commitment to your profession, to your firm and to your client. He got every trait that I must learn despite of those bad habits that he used to revealed when interacting with people.
But then, due to not staying in the firm who groomed me this period, people keep asking the reason of leaving and so on and so forth. "Since your master was so dedicated, why leave?" "Your master really want you to stay, why you leave, he is so sad, you know?" Ya...It's a pretty sad thing for not remained in the firm. He is kind, nice, dedicated, a mentor to me. Yet, this is nothing to with the issue of staying. People also have a incorrect concept - atleast to me, its incorrect - people always think that we should spend 1 or 2 years for your master's firm as a token of appreciation, regardless it had been known to you that, this master's firm will not be your choice for long term basis, and it has zero prospect to you! I admit that when peopel say he is sad for my leaving, it did trigger my compassion to him and to the firm. Maybe I'm a type of very sensible and rational human being, that compassionate feeling doesn't paster me for long, I immediately wake up and understand that I did not make a wrong choice by realizing the factual unsuiltable prospect of the firm. I've made a convincing conclusion to me that, this firm is good in terms of being fostered and groomed by the boss ; yet this is not a place that I'm looking forward to expertise my career and self-exposure.
I'm currently having my 1 week holiday before I join the new but familiar firm. The firm that I did my attchment and the firm that to commence my legal career--> S C Teh & Azura. This is a chance to see the change, the new inspiration and my ability to proof to myself that I can be a very good lawyer if not in YTHT and I can survive and exposed much more than before. Be humble and improve the needed quality to accomodate my future career as a Professional Lawyer :D
Friday, March 11, 2011
Legal Aid Service
7/3/2011, I was finally commenced my legal aid service at old court, which is now the only criminal court in the town. First day to report myself, I met another 2 chambee namely Faiz and Elvis. It was a very quiet Monday, and Mida, the in charge person in the centre seeing me struggled in boresome had given me some files to follow up. After I've got those things done, then, it was time to do whatever you want the whole day, otherwise, it will be quite boring. However, I was given an opportunity to interview an accused who resort the center's help. It was a open-burning offence, when taking down facts for him, I've noticed several lope wholes which was apparently casting his credibility. Neverthelss, since he was sekking help from us, and we as a pupil cannot give him any advice, we can only taking down whatever he said, be it true or not true, and proceed his application. After such application submitted, his application was surprisingly approved.
8/3/2011, second day, Kelly, Fara and Sush were called to the centre for second term of service. Hoho... finally I got friends to accompany and overcome my boring day. Same, we chit chatting for awhile, then I was continuing my HK dramma to ease my bore. No case was being reported today, but 2 chinese women were came to get some information for legal aid application for a guy who is a drug addicted and has committed robbery. Normaly, their excuses were almost the same = "they commited offences because of no choice". Well... I'll definitely not agree with such a lame excuse of "no choice". There must be choices before one thing is happened, don't say "no choice" after you've knew you'd choosed the wrong one which is within your knowledge adn consciousness. This is just the after thought for him to beg others' help.
9/3/11, thrid day, Celine was called to join us. Then we have a total of 5 women who busy chit chatting in the center. Due to really nothing to do, we end up discuaaing way to caculate the mensus period and the "safe period". We all laugh like nobody's matters, and I believe, Mida might receive complains from those prosecutors and lawyers soon.
10/3/11, fourth day, a rapist came to seek help from the center. This is the second mean test I did. He was an 22 years old Malay who being charged under S376 because having sexual relation with an underage gf. No doubt, they love each other and they were just a couple who did what a usual couple will do in this mind-opened day.Yet, they forgot their age. Are they just being too mature or do not know the meaning of LOVE? Well.. the funny part when I was interviewing this guy in thi scase is that, I was jam when I wanna confirm he had has sex with the underage. Then, I was so stupid and asked him: "Can you please tell me what had actually happened when the underage invited you to her bedroom?" Am I expect them to answer me that they were just sharing some inetersting story or plying computer games n the room? Definitely not, just I was too embarrass to ask the details. Then I rephrase my question by saying that: "Did you complete the sexual intercource with her?", then he softly nod his head and staring at the desk and wall without able to look at me. Basically, his gf has successfully retract the police report, he was just need a lawyer who can help him to struck out the hearing date.
11/3/11, last day for my terms to serve the legal aid center, Hong was called to continue his terms of service, so we have a total of 6 today. I shouldn't appear there today, but I successfully crave leave from Mida to continue another one day by this friday. No case reported,but, we've celebrate Celine's bday in the centre. After celebration, we received bad news from the FB that Japan was hitted by 8.9 magnitute earthquake and 7 meters tsunami. The first thing I think was, whether my ex is okay at there? Thank God, he is pretty fine there and I isn't lose him as my special friend.
Thus, a week ended in the Legal Center with all the laugher and joys. This released my boresome accumulated from the firm. Yet, have to face the reality on monday, hope that I won't be so tightup in the up coming working life.
8/3/2011, second day, Kelly, Fara and Sush were called to the centre for second term of service. Hoho... finally I got friends to accompany and overcome my boring day. Same, we chit chatting for awhile, then I was continuing my HK dramma to ease my bore. No case was being reported today, but 2 chinese women were came to get some information for legal aid application for a guy who is a drug addicted and has committed robbery. Normaly, their excuses were almost the same = "they commited offences because of no choice". Well... I'll definitely not agree with such a lame excuse of "no choice". There must be choices before one thing is happened, don't say "no choice" after you've knew you'd choosed the wrong one which is within your knowledge adn consciousness. This is just the after thought for him to beg others' help.
9/3/11, thrid day, Celine was called to join us. Then we have a total of 5 women who busy chit chatting in the center. Due to really nothing to do, we end up discuaaing way to caculate the mensus period and the "safe period". We all laugh like nobody's matters, and I believe, Mida might receive complains from those prosecutors and lawyers soon.
10/3/11, fourth day, a rapist came to seek help from the center. This is the second mean test I did. He was an 22 years old Malay who being charged under S376 because having sexual relation with an underage gf. No doubt, they love each other and they were just a couple who did what a usual couple will do in this mind-opened day.Yet, they forgot their age. Are they just being too mature or do not know the meaning of LOVE? Well.. the funny part when I was interviewing this guy in thi scase is that, I was jam when I wanna confirm he had has sex with the underage. Then, I was so stupid and asked him: "Can you please tell me what had actually happened when the underage invited you to her bedroom?" Am I expect them to answer me that they were just sharing some inetersting story or plying computer games n the room? Definitely not, just I was too embarrass to ask the details. Then I rephrase my question by saying that: "Did you complete the sexual intercource with her?", then he softly nod his head and staring at the desk and wall without able to look at me. Basically, his gf has successfully retract the police report, he was just need a lawyer who can help him to struck out the hearing date.
11/3/11, last day for my terms to serve the legal aid center, Hong was called to continue his terms of service, so we have a total of 6 today. I shouldn't appear there today, but I successfully crave leave from Mida to continue another one day by this friday. No case reported,but, we've celebrate Celine's bday in the centre. After celebration, we received bad news from the FB that Japan was hitted by 8.9 magnitute earthquake and 7 meters tsunami. The first thing I think was, whether my ex is okay at there? Thank God, he is pretty fine there and I isn't lose him as my special friend.
Thus, a week ended in the Legal Center with all the laugher and joys. This released my boresome accumulated from the firm. Yet, have to face the reality on monday, hope that I won't be so tightup in the up coming working life.
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Who will she be underneath her cover?
She is a girl who I knew since Uni first year. A quiet, shy, easy going girl when I first meet her in the class room. The first impression I get from her is that she is a kind of very easy going, pleasant and soft. But, time did manage to change a person to a self-fish, impersonal, don't know gratitute, like to take other's advantage and greedy. She is too easy to leak her tail out by several simple questions. I asked her whether you'll miss your colleagues since you did not see them for a few days? She answered: why should I miss them? (with a very tight frwning expression) which revealed that this thing is highly redundant to her, and he might not like her coullegues at all. From here, you can see many things. I felt that in her world, she doesn't need companion or what we call "friendship" or "relationship", she only know her and she , herself is the best companion to her. The smiling face and the pretending easy going is merely a bait to win certain relationship that able to help her in achieving certain things. I did astonished by my own sensibility to this person, but this is all analysed by facts throughout the period. one must ask: so what? It is Terrifying.
3 more days to go in the legal aid centre... when nth to do... still feeling discourage... am I suffered any disease or what?? Hope that everything will be very smooth after moving to a new environment by this weekend :)
3 more days to go in the legal aid centre... when nth to do... still feeling discourage... am I suffered any disease or what?? Hope that everything will be very smooth after moving to a new environment by this weekend :)
Friday, February 25, 2011
First step
YYP coming back today, and the feeling to him is so much different from last week when we have trial. He also did say Hi like previously and never enter my room today. The drastic feeling might because of I plan to have a series of interview this coming few months where my spirit for better job is burning. When you have such plan, your inception will automatically prevent you from being too close with your boss, to avoid any tendency that will change your mind to leave. Somehow, I felt a little bit guilty after the interview which is not fruitful to me. Although they will say this is kind of normal process where you have right to look for a better opportunity before your call day. Are they really that generous? Just imagine I'm YYP, if I know my student interview somewhere I'll sure feeling uncomfortable. In fact, this is how society work.
The funniest thing in this interview is that the boss of the firm is YYP's master!!! I was so lucky to have this honour to meet my grandmaster!! But, the interviewer does not impress me. Can see that he is very assertive kind of people, he mighgt be talkative but did not look humble in the manner of communication. One thing I really don't like is that, he share people's private matters with me which I felt highly irrespectful to those persons who he mentioned to me. Later on, he talk alot with me. My intereted post is conveyancing, yet he wants liti urgently. Througout the conversation, I can sense that he don't have much interest in me. Because I never do conveyancing before, maybe he is lazy to teach or to cultivate a newbee like me.Lastly, he asked me to call him if I've considered to work with him.
Well... this firm is really amazed me. I thought my office is the most ancient in the town; yet this firm is rather orthodox. If you say my firm is an old-folks home, this firm is a muzeum. No doubt, the pay maybe high, but I really cannot adapt to the extra typical 1960s' style firm like this. A strong feeling of being down-graded.
Next, should be Ms Pai. Hope that this is the one which suit me.Nevertheless, I will still give priority to own firm. Simply because I've really just used to it already. Consider...considering...and re-considering...It's really not simple to find a suitable job which was just like looking for a good husband!
The funniest thing in this interview is that the boss of the firm is YYP's master!!! I was so lucky to have this honour to meet my grandmaster!! But, the interviewer does not impress me. Can see that he is very assertive kind of people, he mighgt be talkative but did not look humble in the manner of communication. One thing I really don't like is that, he share people's private matters with me which I felt highly irrespectful to those persons who he mentioned to me. Later on, he talk alot with me. My intereted post is conveyancing, yet he wants liti urgently. Througout the conversation, I can sense that he don't have much interest in me. Because I never do conveyancing before, maybe he is lazy to teach or to cultivate a newbee like me.Lastly, he asked me to call him if I've considered to work with him.
Well... this firm is really amazed me. I thought my office is the most ancient in the town; yet this firm is rather orthodox. If you say my firm is an old-folks home, this firm is a muzeum. No doubt, the pay maybe high, but I really cannot adapt to the extra typical 1960s' style firm like this. A strong feeling of being down-graded.
Next, should be Ms Pai. Hope that this is the one which suit me.Nevertheless, I will still give priority to own firm. Simply because I've really just used to it already. Consider...considering...and re-considering...It's really not simple to find a suitable job which was just like looking for a good husband!
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Time to leave and say goodbye??
Well... my pupilage will be coming to an end in 3 months time, and it is time for decision and re-evaluate myself. More and more people are asking me the same thing recently; and more and more of my friends are sharing their good news of being retained by the firm. In many times, I'll always be the first one they shared the news with, and each time of sharing is actually attacking and hurting me. It is not purely because of jelousy but a feeling of guiltiness for my own insufficientcy, disasterous and incompetency. Their happiness has triggered my own failure in my career which I felt myself a redundant, under value and not being appreceiated.
George asking me for tea this morning. As expected, during this sensitive period, his purpose of having a cup of tea with me is not purely bluffing or bragging his experience with me. I don't know whether I was being too sensitive, but I can definitely sense or hinted something by his talk and conversation to me.Despite of sharing his legal experience which has been repeated to me, he was trying to know what I want to do or the area I want to practise after chambering. I insinuiting him about my intention to practise conveyancing, but he was keep asking me to choose an area if I would have chance to practise liti. Then I reponded him about my view to the current trend of litigation practice. I shown my interest and also my worry in litigation practise to him. He then start talking about his view and some good experience he gained trying to change my mind to this practise. Actually he was about to persuade me; yet, I fail to pursuade myself to hold on and to have passion in litigation practice.
When we were walking back to the office, he then ended the conversation by saying that: "Since you still have one more month for chambering, just learn whatever you can and you should have know about what you are good and not good in, so think about it" This suggestion did influence my another half day in the office. As usual, I start interprete it negatively. My Goodness! Can anyone analyse his intention by this statement that he said to me? It drove me silly in the office and was distracted me.
After a very useful conversation with my friend, I think i should not be so whimpy anymore. And then, I shall declare my decision to leave YYP and YTHT! Go for the better furture career, my career will still bright without the existance of him!
George asking me for tea this morning. As expected, during this sensitive period, his purpose of having a cup of tea with me is not purely bluffing or bragging his experience with me. I don't know whether I was being too sensitive, but I can definitely sense or hinted something by his talk and conversation to me.Despite of sharing his legal experience which has been repeated to me, he was trying to know what I want to do or the area I want to practise after chambering. I insinuiting him about my intention to practise conveyancing, but he was keep asking me to choose an area if I would have chance to practise liti. Then I reponded him about my view to the current trend of litigation practice. I shown my interest and also my worry in litigation practise to him. He then start talking about his view and some good experience he gained trying to change my mind to this practise. Actually he was about to persuade me; yet, I fail to pursuade myself to hold on and to have passion in litigation practice.
When we were walking back to the office, he then ended the conversation by saying that: "Since you still have one more month for chambering, just learn whatever you can and you should have know about what you are good and not good in, so think about it" This suggestion did influence my another half day in the office. As usual, I start interprete it negatively. My Goodness! Can anyone analyse his intention by this statement that he said to me? It drove me silly in the office and was distracted me.
After a very useful conversation with my friend, I think i should not be so whimpy anymore. And then, I shall declare my decision to leave YYP and YTHT! Go for the better furture career, my career will still bright without the existance of him!
Friday, February 18, 2011
The insight of a week of Trial
I have no idea of since when I was being labeled as a Trial Chambee. All that I've involved was being part of the trial playing a role of the not too important one but the one who can't be without with. DP's trial started by this Wednesday, as usual, we are not able to finish it within the fixed days of 3. I suppose this is the biggest case with the biggest client through out my pupilage. The Pl is a JB well known upstart, whereas our client is a Tan Sri. Just a week of trial, I felt I was drifted apart from families and friends, giving an impression of arrogant and impersonal.
Well, let's first talk about the insightness of this trial. Big lawyer, big clients and witness were presented in this trial, that really widened my exposure. 1st day of trial, YP introduced me to Tan Sri, when I was introducing my name as Ms Tan, Yp misheard I addressed Tan Sri as Mr Tan, haha.. after I've clarified the truth, everyone seems like being amused by YP's black humour. There are a lots of witness called in this trial, YP is the co-counsel while Mr Thommy Thomas, a well known KL lawyer is the lead counsel. First day, JN was come to assist Yp while I was doing my usual task of taking down note.
The P's first witness is the plaintiff himself, a 63 years old upstart, who did not cooperate with the counsel nor understand the question. He contends his lack of education which became the reasons for him to escape from almost every question. One thing amazed me is that his attitude and appearance is contradicted to his status of a director and developer. He is more like a gangster!! He is also keep emphasizing he only have standard 6 education, then I start pondering what make him an upstart with so much of wealth and properties? At that point of time, he makes me puzzlig on myself of why studying so much, being a so called "professional" with little money.
Second day, to my surprise, Yp instruct JN to go bk office half way the trial. Haa.. she was asked to type the NOP!!! Finally, what I thought for long has happened, so this is a good time for her to prove her superb ability to produce such notes in a time with her glamorous English language that is 100% accurately! Sometimes, I suspected YP can read my feeling, and then he will suddenly do something that pleased me! I did enjoy a few moment of joy when he asked JN back for the NOP. Then she can experience my difficulties and hardship that she supposed is very easy. I think the second day is the most delightful trial I have with Yp. Not only because JN's disappearance in the court, I was also given opportunity to join Tan Sri, Thommy and client a short while for case discussion at Thistle Hotel. After a tired but delighful day, GS asked me for a old school mates' gathering with all funs and laughing.
Just half way of gissiping, YP rang me and asked me to get ready with the contract act and paper after I've reached home. That's mean I have to bk home immediately coz he is waiting for my resource!! Thus, the gathering ended by YP >_< After reach home, I did the same as what he instructed me.searching for the part of the proceeding and searching for sections for him...That moment, I start wondering whether I still wanna practice litigation like him?
Again, he repeat the same question tome that whetehr I still wanna practise? This time, I was not as affirm as before, I did not answer him, my persistency has been shaken, not by him, but from what i've seen. My hopelessness to the court is shaking my persistency~
Well, let's first talk about the insightness of this trial. Big lawyer, big clients and witness were presented in this trial, that really widened my exposure. 1st day of trial, YP introduced me to Tan Sri, when I was introducing my name as Ms Tan, Yp misheard I addressed Tan Sri as Mr Tan, haha.. after I've clarified the truth, everyone seems like being amused by YP's black humour. There are a lots of witness called in this trial, YP is the co-counsel while Mr Thommy Thomas, a well known KL lawyer is the lead counsel. First day, JN was come to assist Yp while I was doing my usual task of taking down note.
The P's first witness is the plaintiff himself, a 63 years old upstart, who did not cooperate with the counsel nor understand the question. He contends his lack of education which became the reasons for him to escape from almost every question. One thing amazed me is that his attitude and appearance is contradicted to his status of a director and developer. He is more like a gangster!! He is also keep emphasizing he only have standard 6 education, then I start pondering what make him an upstart with so much of wealth and properties? At that point of time, he makes me puzzlig on myself of why studying so much, being a so called "professional" with little money.
Second day, to my surprise, Yp instruct JN to go bk office half way the trial. Haa.. she was asked to type the NOP!!! Finally, what I thought for long has happened, so this is a good time for her to prove her superb ability to produce such notes in a time with her glamorous English language that is 100% accurately! Sometimes, I suspected YP can read my feeling, and then he will suddenly do something that pleased me! I did enjoy a few moment of joy when he asked JN back for the NOP. Then she can experience my difficulties and hardship that she supposed is very easy. I think the second day is the most delightful trial I have with Yp. Not only because JN's disappearance in the court, I was also given opportunity to join Tan Sri, Thommy and client a short while for case discussion at Thistle Hotel. After a tired but delighful day, GS asked me for a old school mates' gathering with all funs and laughing.
Just half way of gissiping, YP rang me and asked me to get ready with the contract act and paper after I've reached home. That's mean I have to bk home immediately coz he is waiting for my resource!! Thus, the gathering ended by YP >_< After reach home, I did the same as what he instructed me.searching for the part of the proceeding and searching for sections for him...That moment, I start wondering whether I still wanna practice litigation like him?
Again, he repeat the same question tome that whetehr I still wanna practise? This time, I was not as affirm as before, I did not answer him, my persistency has been shaken, not by him, but from what i've seen. My hopelessness to the court is shaking my persistency~
Monday, February 14, 2011
Valentine's... a very special one!
This is a very special Valentine's day that I'd ever have. Special in term of the same feeling with different of him. I've found myself being emotionally unfaithful to my love one. Someone's position deem promoted in my heart; yet another one sent me flowers to secure his position in my heart. I think I've got myself into a real problem recently, I know I can't fall into this slippery slop that will definitely ruin me, I knew it and I'm trying to control it, but sometimes I do afraid that whether he could read me? Because he is a mature and an experience man knows to deal with people in all walks of life, I was pondering he might be able to sense something on me. Especially I discovered that he will do something trying to test me whether I'm into him...or am I thinking too much?
Why is that my valentine is so special for this year? The reason being I've spend about half of my valentine's day with the one who I was emotionally unfaithful with yet I got a surprise by flowers from my bf!! This is a mix feeling that I don't have last Valentine's day. Because of working, I've no choice but have to spend half of the day with him. It was a trial, the witness's counsel successfully adjourn the case to the afternoon finding all kind of excuses do not want to have his witness present or cross-examined. When we go back to the court, he bet with me that the witness present; of course I bet the witness is not present. He said if I lose the bet, I shall pay him for 10 sen.
Clearly, people will definitely take it as a joke, and even 1 party lose the bet, he or she will not take it so serious that to pay that 10 sen to the one who won the bet. Here, I found I was caught by his trap. This is a test! If you've took his joke so seriously and to do whatever he said, that possibly will mean, you care about what that person had said to you and this might show you're interested in him!! Shit! Last week, I even bought him a cake for his birthday. What am I doing recently? Is that too obvious? I should not do such thing anymore, but my ultimate intention is trying to get along with him better, it might not be what I was thinking.
Ya...about that 10 sen. I have printed the 10 sen with pencel on a small piece of paper and wish him a nice day, then I've put the real 10sen underneath the paper trying to surprise him. GODDDD!!!! Why am I did so much of nonsense to him? I'll left him soon, I can't develope any special feeling to him, no! I wanna leave this company for sure! I don't want him to be my corner stone that makes me suffering later. I should not be like that anymore. Be serious to my future, be serious to my love one and keep a line between him and me!
Why is that my valentine is so special for this year? The reason being I've spend about half of my valentine's day with the one who I was emotionally unfaithful with yet I got a surprise by flowers from my bf!! This is a mix feeling that I don't have last Valentine's day. Because of working, I've no choice but have to spend half of the day with him. It was a trial, the witness's counsel successfully adjourn the case to the afternoon finding all kind of excuses do not want to have his witness present or cross-examined. When we go back to the court, he bet with me that the witness present; of course I bet the witness is not present. He said if I lose the bet, I shall pay him for 10 sen.
Clearly, people will definitely take it as a joke, and even 1 party lose the bet, he or she will not take it so serious that to pay that 10 sen to the one who won the bet. Here, I found I was caught by his trap. This is a test! If you've took his joke so seriously and to do whatever he said, that possibly will mean, you care about what that person had said to you and this might show you're interested in him!! Shit! Last week, I even bought him a cake for his birthday. What am I doing recently? Is that too obvious? I should not do such thing anymore, but my ultimate intention is trying to get along with him better, it might not be what I was thinking.
Ya...about that 10 sen. I have printed the 10 sen with pencel on a small piece of paper and wish him a nice day, then I've put the real 10sen underneath the paper trying to surprise him. GODDDD!!!! Why am I did so much of nonsense to him? I'll left him soon, I can't develope any special feeling to him, no! I wanna leave this company for sure! I don't want him to be my corner stone that makes me suffering later. I should not be like that anymore. Be serious to my future, be serious to my love one and keep a line between him and me!
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Why my journey of life is tougher than others?
Yesterday, I was reproched by JN in a very nice way, that kind of reprochment is rather unendurable and ridiculous if compare to what YYP used to do to me. Before CNY, I was happily handed up my notes to JN for second edition. I was rushing the notes day and night so that she could able to complete the second edition in time and to have a blissful CNY. I was doing that with good faith. But, what had happened yesterday proved something to me that, when there is something is going to jeopardise one's self-interest, your kindness to that person will be the first thing jeopardised by that person. No doubt, this thing is usual and it happens, otherwise no competition, no one can be easily survived if no such thing happened. Actually, it's really not a big deal to me, but at least soemone had reflected his true colour at the moment, so it's good that I'm able to take note on that.
She ended up can't finish the second edition of the notes and she honestly confess to YYP the same PLUS, of course the REASONS in which I came into picture. She said she can't finish it because there are too many errors and mistakes. But, one thing I felt a little console is that YYP did question her about the time frame because I'd actually sent the notes to her on time. After threwing all those reasons which are RELEVANT to me, she entered my room and was trying to make her reasons consistent with my incompetency by proving those RELEVANT reasons with GOOD ADVICE to me. In fact, what she said was true, but your late submission should have nothing to do with my incompetency. Because, if there is no question in my incompetency, YYP will not need her to do the second edition for accuratecy purposes. Therefore, on the prima facie of it, hers unable to complete the job has become my problem due to my incompetency, and then I was PLEASED to help her to complete it.
By her request, I was again became a DJ wearing the head phone, listening to the video to review the whole things again. YYP noticed that, and surprisingly, he asked me not to continue with it and he said he will do it. I told him I was doing that with JN's request. He was then again said: "no need."(with a cheerful face, which is more to my surprise). I did not pleased by her extraordinary behaviour, on the contrary, I was scared by that attitude which couldn't be explained. Well... I might as well take it that he was having an appointment in S'pore to celebrate Law Sang since today is the seventh day of CNY, that is the only reason I could have perceived from him. Otherwise, with no reason for him to behave that way, he did scare me.
Lately, I also found that he is choosing not to comment on me, although there were several opportunities for him to do so, but he didn't. In fact, he chooses to reserve many things to me. That makes me feels like peace before a disaster begins. Because he likes to give people a surprise. And please don't tell me that he will be the one who will object my admission during the long call day. Whenever he is trying to treat me nicely, I'll definitely think that that must be a purposes behind it. My intuition told me that, his kindness is not for perpetual, but is more like a token of wanting me to appreciate him despite that he maybe devastated my dream or to embarrass me in one fine day.
Fortunately, I got my bf who consulted me not to think negatively. He is so true and said that I was too easily being influenced by how people are judging on me. When something which is negative to me, I lost my stand and my own persistence on something. That's a huge probition for a litigator in my field. I should learn to speak for my right, and I did the first step today. Because, if I can't speak for my right, how am I going to speak and stand up for my client? I think I was being unreasonably too shy. Is this something to do with because I'm the youngest in the family? So I used to have no idea on something, only know to obey instead of arguing? I think yes. So, I should now learn to be persistent but not stubborn in what is right to me.
She ended up can't finish the second edition of the notes and she honestly confess to YYP the same PLUS, of course the REASONS in which I came into picture. She said she can't finish it because there are too many errors and mistakes. But, one thing I felt a little console is that YYP did question her about the time frame because I'd actually sent the notes to her on time. After threwing all those reasons which are RELEVANT to me, she entered my room and was trying to make her reasons consistent with my incompetency by proving those RELEVANT reasons with GOOD ADVICE to me. In fact, what she said was true, but your late submission should have nothing to do with my incompetency. Because, if there is no question in my incompetency, YYP will not need her to do the second edition for accuratecy purposes. Therefore, on the prima facie of it, hers unable to complete the job has become my problem due to my incompetency, and then I was PLEASED to help her to complete it.
By her request, I was again became a DJ wearing the head phone, listening to the video to review the whole things again. YYP noticed that, and surprisingly, he asked me not to continue with it and he said he will do it. I told him I was doing that with JN's request. He was then again said: "no need."(with a cheerful face, which is more to my surprise). I did not pleased by her extraordinary behaviour, on the contrary, I was scared by that attitude which couldn't be explained. Well... I might as well take it that he was having an appointment in S'pore to celebrate Law Sang since today is the seventh day of CNY, that is the only reason I could have perceived from him. Otherwise, with no reason for him to behave that way, he did scare me.
Lately, I also found that he is choosing not to comment on me, although there were several opportunities for him to do so, but he didn't. In fact, he chooses to reserve many things to me. That makes me feels like peace before a disaster begins. Because he likes to give people a surprise. And please don't tell me that he will be the one who will object my admission during the long call day. Whenever he is trying to treat me nicely, I'll definitely think that that must be a purposes behind it. My intuition told me that, his kindness is not for perpetual, but is more like a token of wanting me to appreciate him despite that he maybe devastated my dream or to embarrass me in one fine day.
Fortunately, I got my bf who consulted me not to think negatively. He is so true and said that I was too easily being influenced by how people are judging on me. When something which is negative to me, I lost my stand and my own persistence on something. That's a huge probition for a litigator in my field. I should learn to speak for my right, and I did the first step today. Because, if I can't speak for my right, how am I going to speak and stand up for my client? I think I was being unreasonably too shy. Is this something to do with because I'm the youngest in the family? So I used to have no idea on something, only know to obey instead of arguing? I think yes. So, I should now learn to be persistent but not stubborn in what is right to me.
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
CNY Eve 2011
This CNY eve dinner is organised at Sg Rengit as usual. But, I sensed diferrences if compare to the dinner that I have last year. We have less participant this year since 4th uncle left us last year, and 2nd aunt and family was absent for cousin sis' confinement preparation. So, only a few of us, i.e. 1st, 2nd and 3rd uncle+families, 3rd and youngest aunt, and us. Well, although we have not much people for the dinner, but I was so enlightened by the conversation we have during the dinner. 2nd uncle was as talkative as usual in his bible talk. He is a faithful christian and he will definitely share a lots of bible talk with us in every CNY eve dinner, and normally, the youngsters like us did not really entertain by his talk, of course we reapect to his religion, but we find it difficult to understand his faithfulness to God by surrounding the whole conversation the issue of bible.
However, after I've been a part of society, I find myself indulged in his bible talk this year. Actually, his bible talk did make some sense indeed! But, because I'm an atheist, I respect to people religion views; yet I will be much respect to the reasoning of science, especially those have been proved. 2nd uncle have a very good sense of enlightening me by conveying his religion view into stuffs happened in our live. He said: "God will only grant us ability for handling something that is within that ability, not for something beyond that, that's how God lead us to the true destination that belong to us". Indeed, it's so true. Intelligence is gifted by God, while ability to achieve is depend on us, not everyone willing to achieve according to the steps, there are ways of short cut, there are ways by putting tremendous effort. Anyway, what and where your destination is does not a metter, but the journey to it does a matter. In between, we'll meet several turning points that might trigger change of destination, or have our destination half way aborted. That is crucial.
25 years old, I hope everything will be smoother than last year, may all my obstacles be solved with greater health and job opportunities ahead!! Huat arhhh~~~~
However, after I've been a part of society, I find myself indulged in his bible talk this year. Actually, his bible talk did make some sense indeed! But, because I'm an atheist, I respect to people religion views; yet I will be much respect to the reasoning of science, especially those have been proved. 2nd uncle have a very good sense of enlightening me by conveying his religion view into stuffs happened in our live. He said: "God will only grant us ability for handling something that is within that ability, not for something beyond that, that's how God lead us to the true destination that belong to us". Indeed, it's so true. Intelligence is gifted by God, while ability to achieve is depend on us, not everyone willing to achieve according to the steps, there are ways of short cut, there are ways by putting tremendous effort. Anyway, what and where your destination is does not a metter, but the journey to it does a matter. In between, we'll meet several turning points that might trigger change of destination, or have our destination half way aborted. That is crucial.
25 years old, I hope everything will be smoother than last year, may all my obstacles be solved with greater health and job opportunities ahead!! Huat arhhh~~~~
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
The true colour of court practice
Chinese New Year is coming.. This year will be different from the last few years. Previously, I used to have my student's style of CNY celebration: having at least a week of vacation, buying new clothes without much thinking,paying several visits to relatives' and friends' place. After graduate, life have become so much different. Always lacking of time doing things like we all did in campus life. Now, if I'll have free time, I'll rather get enough sleep, keep fit and to enhance self-competency in order to survive among the competitor and to maintain legal profession. No more day dreaming, no more slacking with friends... everything has become so material that will definitely has its purppose which should be useful to certain aspect of life.
Although there will be 6 days CNY's holidays. But, in view of a week of trials that commenced right after the CNY, such holidays turn out to be the precious moment of preparation of trials, it might be the most pressure CNY I'll ever have in my life. What a sad thing it is? Despite of the stress holidays that the law practitioner always have... we also have to bear with those who deem expert but in fact not, in the court. Especially the lower court.
I was assigned a JID file appear before the Magistrate today. I've been through a
series of hurdles there. Once the crazy Mag knew that I'm a pupil, she starts being fussy, tricky and deliberately to embarrasse me. She suddenly ask me to produce something that is unneccessary and I don't have. It ends up the second prayer was strike out. After this experience, I was a little discouraged by the Malaysian court system. And start feeling annoying to see their face. Why should I bow to an arrogant stupid? Why should I keep on stressing the words "with your permission"? Why should I still say "thank you" after have been scolded by a stupid? All these seem radiculous to me and I suddenly feel that those practice are uncomfortable to me.
Is this field suit me?
But when I think further,all these are the skills and profession that we need. Litigation is all about the dispute resolution. Dispute that not only between the parties in a contentious matter but you can easily get involved in everyday dispute which is inevitable: among peers, colleagues, superior, inferior and family. This is an art of communication and then, the way to reconciliation. In this point time, I just cannot believe that I can change my view within a second...well... sometimes, we shouldn't be too assertive, to me, everything happens with its cause and there must be something for us to learn. So, just don't afraid of failure, this is how life is moving.
Although there will be 6 days CNY's holidays. But, in view of a week of trials that commenced right after the CNY, such holidays turn out to be the precious moment of preparation of trials, it might be the most pressure CNY I'll ever have in my life. What a sad thing it is? Despite of the stress holidays that the law practitioner always have... we also have to bear with those who deem expert but in fact not, in the court. Especially the lower court.
I was assigned a JID file appear before the Magistrate today. I've been through a
series of hurdles there. Once the crazy Mag knew that I'm a pupil, she starts being fussy, tricky and deliberately to embarrasse me. She suddenly ask me to produce something that is unneccessary and I don't have. It ends up the second prayer was strike out. After this experience, I was a little discouraged by the Malaysian court system. And start feeling annoying to see their face. Why should I bow to an arrogant stupid? Why should I keep on stressing the words "with your permission"? Why should I still say "thank you" after have been scolded by a stupid? All these seem radiculous to me and I suddenly feel that those practice are uncomfortable to me.
Is this field suit me?
But when I think further,all these are the skills and profession that we need. Litigation is all about the dispute resolution. Dispute that not only between the parties in a contentious matter but you can easily get involved in everyday dispute which is inevitable: among peers, colleagues, superior, inferior and family. This is an art of communication and then, the way to reconciliation. In this point time, I just cannot believe that I can change my view within a second...well... sometimes, we shouldn't be too assertive, to me, everything happens with its cause and there must be something for us to learn. So, just don't afraid of failure, this is how life is moving.
Friday, January 21, 2011
TP Trial day 6
Please do not misunderstand by the caption, this is not a notes of proceedings. Hee.. I think I'm too into the trials that I've been through this few months. Ya.. today is another trial for TP and that is the 6th we have, and that will be another 2 or more days for the continuous trials. As usual, I arrived at court 45 minutes earlier just to avoid being caught by the traffic congestion. I was then spend this short time in court's cafeteria, having a cup of lime tea, running through the notes and to re-call certain important issues that will help my master during the examinations of witnesses.
By 8.30 a.m. sharp, I've entered High Court 2 pulling my bauky trolly that is cumbersome. "Good Morning!", my Master is greeting me as usual in every morning, but today is a little bit different, because he said that with a big smile :) Well... a good signs indeed. He looks like more confident than the previous trials, to me, he is well prepared, indeed he is. After all the defendants counsel and the witnesses are arrived, the court started at 9 a.m. The cunning witness, Mr Ho was called to the witness stand again. As expected, he was hostile and uncoorperated as what he did on the last ocassion. But, his attitutes and reactions to the questions that posed to him was apparently showed that he is trying to cover and to circumvent the questions. The more elaboration he gave the more the contradiction to his credibility in this case.
After almost 4 hours of battle, the judge decided to stand down the matter and adjourned it to the next trial day. I believed, that is the outcome the defendants are looking forward to, because the scenario and the witness' performance is not in their favors today. 12.30 p.m., master treating us lunch at pan pac and of course discussing the trial. As expected, he asked me to assess judge's position in today trial. I've been very frank to him and said that the judge was not with us initially, but his attitude changed when the witness start contradicting himself by his exessive explaination, His Lordship even ask to continue the proceedings regardless the defendants' proposal to adjourn or the objections from the defendants. My assessment was eventually pleased my master, and that is what he wanted from me. Well, just to be clear here, I was saying that neither because of wanted to please him nor knowing that he likes to listen to that kind of things from me. Such assessment is purely based on what I've perceived to what had happened through out the proceedings, plus the experiences that I've gained from the previous proceedings.
One thing I couldn't understand is that, he will definitely ask me a question: "So, do you still want to practise since there are so many uncertainties during the trial?" And my answer will always be: "Of course I want to!". Well... actually, I posed that question to myself many times before he posed the samething to me. My confidence did shake at one point of time when I've been considering it thoroughly. In this country, the judiciary system seems challenging to me and those young lawyer and majority of them ended up to opt leaving this field. It is undeniably that I might be one of them in future, but, I don't wish to give up before I could expose myself more on this field. This is the profession that I'm looking forward to expose and to perform because I think I have the potential to be a good lawyer, and I'm now keep improving myself which I think was so evident that not only I've disocvered it, even I think my boss should have discovered the same thing from me. If he does concern on me as his pupil. Another thing is that, I love making something impossible to possible, and I like to see how a miracle will happen to me, because I'm a girl who enjoy the process to the achievement and success, which is something I'm got to be proud of and something that near my dream.
By 8.30 a.m. sharp, I've entered High Court 2 pulling my bauky trolly that is cumbersome. "Good Morning!", my Master is greeting me as usual in every morning, but today is a little bit different, because he said that with a big smile :) Well... a good signs indeed. He looks like more confident than the previous trials, to me, he is well prepared, indeed he is. After all the defendants counsel and the witnesses are arrived, the court started at 9 a.m. The cunning witness, Mr Ho was called to the witness stand again. As expected, he was hostile and uncoorperated as what he did on the last ocassion. But, his attitutes and reactions to the questions that posed to him was apparently showed that he is trying to cover and to circumvent the questions. The more elaboration he gave the more the contradiction to his credibility in this case.
After almost 4 hours of battle, the judge decided to stand down the matter and adjourned it to the next trial day. I believed, that is the outcome the defendants are looking forward to, because the scenario and the witness' performance is not in their favors today. 12.30 p.m., master treating us lunch at pan pac and of course discussing the trial. As expected, he asked me to assess judge's position in today trial. I've been very frank to him and said that the judge was not with us initially, but his attitude changed when the witness start contradicting himself by his exessive explaination, His Lordship even ask to continue the proceedings regardless the defendants' proposal to adjourn or the objections from the defendants. My assessment was eventually pleased my master, and that is what he wanted from me. Well, just to be clear here, I was saying that neither because of wanted to please him nor knowing that he likes to listen to that kind of things from me. Such assessment is purely based on what I've perceived to what had happened through out the proceedings, plus the experiences that I've gained from the previous proceedings.
One thing I couldn't understand is that, he will definitely ask me a question: "So, do you still want to practise since there are so many uncertainties during the trial?" And my answer will always be: "Of course I want to!". Well... actually, I posed that question to myself many times before he posed the samething to me. My confidence did shake at one point of time when I've been considering it thoroughly. In this country, the judiciary system seems challenging to me and those young lawyer and majority of them ended up to opt leaving this field. It is undeniably that I might be one of them in future, but, I don't wish to give up before I could expose myself more on this field. This is the profession that I'm looking forward to expose and to perform because I think I have the potential to be a good lawyer, and I'm now keep improving myself which I think was so evident that not only I've disocvered it, even I think my boss should have discovered the same thing from me. If he does concern on me as his pupil. Another thing is that, I love making something impossible to possible, and I like to see how a miracle will happen to me, because I'm a girl who enjoy the process to the achievement and success, which is something I'm got to be proud of and something that near my dream.
Sunday, January 16, 2011
New week, new start.
It was a fruitful weekend I had have with my family. I've spent my Sat brought my mom to our new house cheking the installation of bed doors. Then, we back home to fetch Grace for brunch. After brunch, we went to visit Hua aunt by picking her up at her work place where I was alomost lost my way. Fortunately I was still able to find out the right way to her office based on my recollection of Pelangi's route. Then we went to have lunch with dim sam while chit chatting our recent life. To ours surprise, the just married cousin sis is going to give brith her 1st baby son this coming Feb without any one's knowing. This reflects we hadn't contact to each other quite a long time until we do not even know when the cousin sis was pregnant, then I suddenly feel that it is so important for us to spend time with family and at least to know what each other is doing.
On the same day in afternoon, I received a call from YTHT. It was a miscall. When I called back, Kak Su informed me that YYP was looking for me because he want to confirm my car plate number. Confirming my car plate numbers for what? I start finding his intention is interesting. Was it a signal of want to retain me? Kak Su didn't want to disclose more when I was trying to ask her why. Or maybe I've been thinking too much as if YYP want to retain me? The next thing that I was and I'm now thiking is what if he really think so? Am I going to allow myself to be retained or I should start bargain with him about the salary? What should I say if he is asking me for retention? How am I going to reject him with courtesy if I don't want to continue in his firm? This is all about the art of communication and I do really hope I can master this well. Whenever I'm thinking further on this issue, I have a strong desire that keep asking me to stay instead of leaving. But, my foresight keep signal me to look for a better one. This results in my dilemma.
No sooner, I realized the reason of my intuition that wanting me to stay, and that reason puzzle me. I've sense something went differently in term of my feeling to him. Instead of saying that I want to stay due to I prefer my current work place and colleagues, I shall admit the main reason is because of him. I don't know since when I've developed a kind of feeling which I don't wish to describe, and I also don't know how to describe it, I'm just couldn't bear to leave. I know this will definitely surprise my frinds and families who always listening to my crab to him, it is also very hard to convince myself about the change, from grind and bear with it to just staying at where you were being appreciated and felt gratitute to someone who teach you. All in all, I think I'm not mature enough to virtualize what I really want in my career. I have enough to all these nonsence feeling which going to ruin my thought and future. I should be more rationale when considering my future career. No matter how, I should always remember to think wisely and express my views with courtesy.
If he will ask me, "How do you think through out your half year of chambering?" I should possibly reply him about my views of litigation practice, my views to this firm, bosses and colleagues, my wishes of my future exposure so on and so forth. I hope that I could present my views in a more relaxing way that enable me to express what I want and what my direction is.
On the same day in afternoon, I received a call from YTHT. It was a miscall. When I called back, Kak Su informed me that YYP was looking for me because he want to confirm my car plate number. Confirming my car plate numbers for what? I start finding his intention is interesting. Was it a signal of want to retain me? Kak Su didn't want to disclose more when I was trying to ask her why. Or maybe I've been thinking too much as if YYP want to retain me? The next thing that I was and I'm now thiking is what if he really think so? Am I going to allow myself to be retained or I should start bargain with him about the salary? What should I say if he is asking me for retention? How am I going to reject him with courtesy if I don't want to continue in his firm? This is all about the art of communication and I do really hope I can master this well. Whenever I'm thinking further on this issue, I have a strong desire that keep asking me to stay instead of leaving. But, my foresight keep signal me to look for a better one. This results in my dilemma.
No sooner, I realized the reason of my intuition that wanting me to stay, and that reason puzzle me. I've sense something went differently in term of my feeling to him. Instead of saying that I want to stay due to I prefer my current work place and colleagues, I shall admit the main reason is because of him. I don't know since when I've developed a kind of feeling which I don't wish to describe, and I also don't know how to describe it, I'm just couldn't bear to leave. I know this will definitely surprise my frinds and families who always listening to my crab to him, it is also very hard to convince myself about the change, from grind and bear with it to just staying at where you were being appreciated and felt gratitute to someone who teach you. All in all, I think I'm not mature enough to virtualize what I really want in my career. I have enough to all these nonsence feeling which going to ruin my thought and future. I should be more rationale when considering my future career. No matter how, I should always remember to think wisely and express my views with courtesy.
If he will ask me, "How do you think through out your half year of chambering?" I should possibly reply him about my views of litigation practice, my views to this firm, bosses and colleagues, my wishes of my future exposure so on and so forth. I hope that I could present my views in a more relaxing way that enable me to express what I want and what my direction is.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
我已沉沦了半年了吗？
今天打算用华语来表达我最近的心情。半年咯，不知不觉的我已经当了实习律师半年了， 而最近每个人遇见对方都会采用一样的问候语：“嗨！怎样了？会留；会走？”这类型的问候语有时让我很懊恼，为什么会懊恼呢？答案是很简单的，那是因为自己还拿不定主意。自己的扭捏和犹豫不决真的带给我不少困扰。还有三个月就开始我的律师生涯的我，是很应该改掉这种陋习的，不然怎么能成为一个果断有思想敏捷的律师呢？我的犹豫不决其实都来自于许多矛盾的因素。说真的，我一方面害怕别人那类型的问候语，一方面却又很想要从他们之中知道一些好介绍，另外还有一方面就是太过于念旧，非常之舍不得离开现在的工作环境，我懊恼，懊恼自己那该死的念旧情怀，懊恼为何总是提不起勇气做决定，懊恼自己总是跟钱过不去。。。我总是很难理解一个事实就是，师徒和同事之情可不能当饭吃呀。
最近也觉得老板们怪怪的。尤其是老杨，不知从几何时，老杨跟我讲话时变得很扭捏，跟他在庭上是两个人。他今天也问我关于Long Call 的日子和最近实习的状况，听起来，他应该是要针对一些事情并要跟我讨论的，看起来就是他说不出口的样子，有点好笑。但是，能从他嘴里说出的，只有两件事的其中一件，那就是他不是想要留我，就是想要用更婉转的方式要我走。然而，我的心里早已为第二个选择做好了准备，只不过想要更明确一点。其实，不需要更明确的，读法律适度知道有一总原则叫做 Implication by conduct， 不用什么事情都说的明白的，态度和一些颇明显的表现是能够说明一切的，干我们为您这行的总是要比别人察言观色的快，要在别人还没说明前，就得先知道别人大概会采取什么行动，或者在别人的角度想别人会说和会做什么，这些我还是有两下子的。其实我也不晓得为何我会那么在乎别人是否留我，如果我会多为我的前途着想的话，这个根本不是什么难题。我想。。。我太爱面子了，想深入些，才发觉到自己很幼稚。
坦白地说，我的内心早就有了很明确的答案，那就是走。但就是因为太执着和放不下。我在乎的，其实是我希望别人会先留我，然后我再吊起来卖，卖不成，才骄傲的走。但，事实中是无法如愿以偿，我不开心，因为我根本没有吊起来买的机会，反而是被人抛弃的成分多一点，这样一来，心里开始觉得空空的，不是滋味。我也很好奇为什么25的我，思想会如此幼稚。。。是时候最个决定了。如果老杨真的能够感应到我的心情的话，他大概明天就会套我的话，给暗示，或要答案了。其实，为什么我会这么说是因为，在我实习这么久以来，我发觉到，其实老杨的性格跟我有点像，哈哈。。他是我的长辈，应该说我的处世态度，对人的态度，喜好，跟他都有些像似。虽然说他说话总是直肠子，也很爱讽刺（就是这一点有些像）， 但是都不是没有道理的。我嘴巴说他多讨人厌，但每一次冥想之后，杜绝的他说的度超有道理的，我很矛盾吧。觉得他很有道理还不用紧，慢慢的会开始仰慕他，觉得他是在很厉害。 为什么一个年一般百的人能够如此活力充沛，到处公干，面对挑畔者会如此从容不迫，永远笑脸迎人，但深谋远虑，不让别人知道自己在想什么。。。这些都是让我佩服的。就是因为他这么一位让我敬仰的师傅，才让我觉得依依不舍。可能你可以说我贪心，想要在他身上多学点吧！！
说到这里，又让我回忆起许多公司里的趣事儿了，哎呀。。。。更没勇气离开了啦！！ 我怎么总是这样啊？？好气自己哦！！希望我能早日开窍！
最近也觉得老板们怪怪的。尤其是老杨，不知从几何时，老杨跟我讲话时变得很扭捏，跟他在庭上是两个人。他今天也问我关于Long Call 的日子和最近实习的状况，听起来，他应该是要针对一些事情并要跟我讨论的，看起来就是他说不出口的样子，有点好笑。但是，能从他嘴里说出的，只有两件事的其中一件，那就是他不是想要留我，就是想要用更婉转的方式要我走。然而，我的心里早已为第二个选择做好了准备，只不过想要更明确一点。其实，不需要更明确的，读法律适度知道有一总原则叫做 Implication by conduct， 不用什么事情都说的明白的，态度和一些颇明显的表现是能够说明一切的，干我们为您这行的总是要比别人察言观色的快，要在别人还没说明前，就得先知道别人大概会采取什么行动，或者在别人的角度想别人会说和会做什么，这些我还是有两下子的。其实我也不晓得为何我会那么在乎别人是否留我，如果我会多为我的前途着想的话，这个根本不是什么难题。我想。。。我太爱面子了，想深入些，才发觉到自己很幼稚。
坦白地说，我的内心早就有了很明确的答案，那就是走。但就是因为太执着和放不下。我在乎的，其实是我希望别人会先留我，然后我再吊起来卖，卖不成，才骄傲的走。但，事实中是无法如愿以偿，我不开心，因为我根本没有吊起来买的机会，反而是被人抛弃的成分多一点，这样一来，心里开始觉得空空的，不是滋味。我也很好奇为什么25的我，思想会如此幼稚。。。是时候最个决定了。如果老杨真的能够感应到我的心情的话，他大概明天就会套我的话，给暗示，或要答案了。其实，为什么我会这么说是因为，在我实习这么久以来，我发觉到，其实老杨的性格跟我有点像，哈哈。。他是我的长辈，应该说我的处世态度，对人的态度，喜好，跟他都有些像似。虽然说他说话总是直肠子，也很爱讽刺（就是这一点有些像）， 但是都不是没有道理的。我嘴巴说他多讨人厌，但每一次冥想之后，杜绝的他说的度超有道理的，我很矛盾吧。觉得他很有道理还不用紧，慢慢的会开始仰慕他，觉得他是在很厉害。 为什么一个年一般百的人能够如此活力充沛，到处公干，面对挑畔者会如此从容不迫，永远笑脸迎人，但深谋远虑，不让别人知道自己在想什么。。。这些都是让我佩服的。就是因为他这么一位让我敬仰的师傅，才让我觉得依依不舍。可能你可以说我贪心，想要在他身上多学点吧！！
说到这里，又让我回忆起许多公司里的趣事儿了，哎呀。。。。更没勇气离开了啦！！ 我怎么总是这样啊？？好气自己哦！！希望我能早日开窍！
Monday, January 10, 2011
People who know to express something in FB meaning he knows what his live is all about.
Whenever I'm opening my FB, I will definitely read a lot of status posted by friends and also the unknown friends. Previously, I will use to do the same thing like them, posting sentences or words to express my daily's feelings on FB's wall. We called this thing as 21st century attitude of communication. I found that people in this century use to communicate by implication and hints, the way of how people are communicate to each other is in the seemingly direct but implily being expressed via method, such as internet today. But, for those who knows to express their feelings well on the FB's wall are those who knows to live their life, I think. Because, they clearly know what they are doing everyday and they cant wait to share what they did with others, that attitude to me is positive and they are cofidently living their life in such a way that they are so happy to let people know how they live and how happily they are enjoying every second of life.
I lost this habit since I've started my chambering. Maybe I know I have nothing worth to share with others about my life. I don't think my life is unique enough to attract people's attention on me, and I don't need those attentions. Somehow, even I don't express anything, people seems like interested in knowing me and they have somehow created rumores for me. This is quite annoying, but in certains senses, it also meant that I'm popular, haha... Well, something serious to be considered recently. I felt puzzling in making choices, actually, I should say I'm facing what has been decided, or we can called it a reality. My observations told me that my boss is not going to retain me because I cant see any signal showed that he will retain a hopeless person or a potential lawyer burok like me. So, what i should do now is to find out a more potential me to be matched with a more potential firm. Time is precious to me, I should think more about my future instead of caring for those people who end up might not worth to work with.
People are realistic, they will not bother you as you don't have something to make use of, so they will just treating you like a fool, feeding you or give a little benefit by one or twice sumptuous lunch cannot make me a fool, even if it is, it will only be a short period of 3 more months. I just want me to wake up, i think I was too indulge in my own nostamania. I should learn how to let go and seeking for the better future that is belong tome. I wanna live for myself, not for others. I've met many law practitioners while wasting for nearly 4 hours in court today. Only then I found that, litigators are those who like wasting times for unnecessary waiting. Haiz.. what is the purpose for me to be a lawyer? Is lawyer a professional in waiting?? Or a professional in strking the balance of justice? Sometimes, I felt quite fareup in court, wearing smartly but going there to see the TP's pig face by spending hours of waiting. Am I going to watse the rest of my life by wasting times for the unnecessaries' waiting? What am I waiting for?
I lost this habit since I've started my chambering. Maybe I know I have nothing worth to share with others about my life. I don't think my life is unique enough to attract people's attention on me, and I don't need those attentions. Somehow, even I don't express anything, people seems like interested in knowing me and they have somehow created rumores for me. This is quite annoying, but in certains senses, it also meant that I'm popular, haha... Well, something serious to be considered recently. I felt puzzling in making choices, actually, I should say I'm facing what has been decided, or we can called it a reality. My observations told me that my boss is not going to retain me because I cant see any signal showed that he will retain a hopeless person or a potential lawyer burok like me. So, what i should do now is to find out a more potential me to be matched with a more potential firm. Time is precious to me, I should think more about my future instead of caring for those people who end up might not worth to work with.
People are realistic, they will not bother you as you don't have something to make use of, so they will just treating you like a fool, feeding you or give a little benefit by one or twice sumptuous lunch cannot make me a fool, even if it is, it will only be a short period of 3 more months. I just want me to wake up, i think I was too indulge in my own nostamania. I should learn how to let go and seeking for the better future that is belong tome. I wanna live for myself, not for others. I've met many law practitioners while wasting for nearly 4 hours in court today. Only then I found that, litigators are those who like wasting times for unnecessary waiting. Haiz.. what is the purpose for me to be a lawyer? Is lawyer a professional in waiting?? Or a professional in strking the balance of justice? Sometimes, I felt quite fareup in court, wearing smartly but going there to see the TP's pig face by spending hours of waiting. Am I going to watse the rest of my life by wasting times for the unnecessaries' waiting? What am I waiting for?
Monday, January 3, 2011
A sumptuous lunch!! ^^
"Knock, knock!!", as usual the door opened after two quick knocks, I know there is someone coming in the room but I was too concentrated on my letter on the screen. Then I realized the ambience became weird because that person remained silent after entered my room. That moment of silence caught my attention to see who the person is, and that he is, YYP. He then asked me with a doubtful eyes and a smiling face that why I didn't realize he is coming in? I know it is quite awkward and it seems like uncourteous to him at that moment, but I'm really not aware of is him, because I normally doesn't pay much attention on fellow collougues who entering my room picking files and looking through my window. Ha, I seemed like too long winded, but it is truth that I wasn't conscious.
He then happily make a japanese lunch appointment with me by saying that " 12p.m., Japanese". Frankly, he have somethings that really intrigued me. He was and is a smooth talker in and out the office and court, but he seems to be unsmooth when talking to me, especially when seeking help, inviting me for lunch or wants me doing things in his favour. Whatever it is, we have spent one and a half hour for a sumptuous lunch at CS Picachiu, and I will consider it as a most delighful lunch I have since my chmabering.
Nevertheless, he is still my boss. I was once indulged with his generous to his staff and humorous during lunch, that moment really the most pleasure, unstress and relaxing moment with him, but happy time is always short-lived. From what I know him, after he has been treating us nicely, maybe this should only directed at me. Then, it will be another reproach or reprovement for me. So, whenever he is treating me good, I will have to keep reminding myself that "He is my BOSS", his face changed once step into office and works. After Sushi all that, his expectation and standard to me will never change.
Today, I also "amazed" by my extraordinary slow's speed to complete a simple letter by using a whole day. Am I crazy or what? I was like a patient suffering a serious "slow-in-doing work" disease. I should not be like that, I must complete tasks within a shortest time frame so that I can only compete with others after called. I also worry about Mom who seems like suffering Amnesia, she is not able to recall certain things that just happened not long ago. Just wondering how to help her, or whether there is any efficient mothod to cure her? Afraid....
He then happily make a japanese lunch appointment with me by saying that " 12p.m., Japanese". Frankly, he have somethings that really intrigued me. He was and is a smooth talker in and out the office and court, but he seems to be unsmooth when talking to me, especially when seeking help, inviting me for lunch or wants me doing things in his favour. Whatever it is, we have spent one and a half hour for a sumptuous lunch at CS Picachiu, and I will consider it as a most delighful lunch I have since my chmabering.
Nevertheless, he is still my boss. I was once indulged with his generous to his staff and humorous during lunch, that moment really the most pleasure, unstress and relaxing moment with him, but happy time is always short-lived. From what I know him, after he has been treating us nicely, maybe this should only directed at me. Then, it will be another reproach or reprovement for me. So, whenever he is treating me good, I will have to keep reminding myself that "He is my BOSS", his face changed once step into office and works. After Sushi all that, his expectation and standard to me will never change.
Today, I also "amazed" by my extraordinary slow's speed to complete a simple letter by using a whole day. Am I crazy or what? I was like a patient suffering a serious "slow-in-doing work" disease. I should not be like that, I must complete tasks within a shortest time frame so that I can only compete with others after called. I also worry about Mom who seems like suffering Amnesia, she is not able to recall certain things that just happened not long ago. Just wondering how to help her, or whether there is any efficient mothod to cure her? Afraid....
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